Siblings in love by Nanari_Uchiha

Chapter 1

Kagome sat in the kitchen, staring at the boy sitting in the living room. She couldn't take her eyes off of him with his conspicuous good looks, his snowy white hair and his great body, it was all to much to look away from. Her eyes just stared at the back of his head but it still made her mind go wild. She couldn't believe that she would fall for him because he always held a glare toward her.

"Sesshomaru?"

He turned his attention toward her, his glaring eyes catching her breath. "What is it?" He asked dryly.

"Can you move your head? I can't see the TV from here?" He compiled as he scooted to the side, leaning his elbow on the armrest. It wasn't that she couldn't see the TV, it was only an excuse to steal a glance at his amazing features. It was like a sin to look at him because as her mind drifted off, thinking of a life with Sesshomaru that will never come, that's when tears started to streak her face. She never told him, she never showed her feelings toward him and this made tears pour out of her eyes.

She sniffed, catching Sesshomaru's attention and as he turned and witnessed the tears that she quickly wiped away, he got up. He went to her and placed his hands roughly on her shoulder, lifting her downcast chin up towards him to get a better look at her face.

"Why are you crying? Are you hurt?" Sesshomaru examined her face, tilting it to the side than checking her hands all the way to the fingertips. She felt a blush cross her face and the heat that emitted off of her cheeks caused her to whip her hand out of his grasp. He was worried but the words that came out of his mouth were always sharp and cruel.

"N-No. I'm fine." It was hard enough for her to stay focus. She was always drifting off into dreams where she would always kiss him. It made her feel disgusted of herself but as his hand cupped her chin and lifted it up to the light, glaring eyes met her gaze, causing her to clench her fist tightly.

"If your fine than why are you crying?" The more she didn't talk the tighter the grip around her chin had gotten.

"I'm fine. Just don't touch me!" She shoved him away and ran upstairs, slamming her door. She felt hot with embarrassment and she leaned up against the door, sinking ever so slowly to the ground. She felt guilty, she felt guilty forever thinking that he would be with her. She felt guilty that for ever thinking that he would ever kiss her and embrace her, telling her over and over again that he loved her. She knew it would never come and she hugged her legs up against her chest, burying her face into her knees. The pain was over whelming because the guilt was overtaking every inch of her body.

The guilt of being in love with Sesshomaru was too much because he was her savior, her protector as well as her brother and nothing more.

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She tossed and turned under her covers as her pathetic dreams ran rampage in her head. The words 'I love you' kept repeating in her head and never wanting to stop. It was like a reality that she would never have but she snapped her eyes open, feeling a cold chill run up her spine. The covers were tossed off of her like rapid fire and she trembled, huddled in the bed to get warmth.

"Get up. I don't want to be late for school." She sat up right with a groan, glaring at him. She tried to hold back the blush she had on her face but it wasn't helped so to make not seem so noticeable she scowled with a hellish glimmer in her eyes.

"I can't wake up myself you know that." She said as cruelly as he woke her up.

"Not my problem. I was bored so I wanted to torture you."

"That's stupid." He shrugged and exited her room that made a large sigh escape her. You would expect for a lovesick girl to act all shy and quiet toward the person she loved but this was different. It was forbidden love so she acted like her cruel, annoying, disturbed self every time he would be near her. It was stupid but it kept those feelings hidden and as she thought about this, she got dressed and did the usual routine.

Descending the stares, Kagome walked in the kitchen where her mother and father sat reading the newspaper. Her father looked up at her and paid no mind to her as she sat down. Her father Onigumo was just like Sesshomaru in every way. He always held a passive face and never showed anyone his emotions...that is, if he had emotions. He ran a reputable company and that company would always show up in the news whether it would be the great new discoveries that the science department had or new experiments they were conducting. The company had to do with all kinds of stuff like research for cures of diseases or technology for the future.

"Do you want some toast dear?" Kagome smiled and took the piece of bread from her mother. She always was the peacemaker in the family. Every time her father and Sesshomaru would get into an argument that's when she steps in. Every fight that her father had with either Sesshomaru or Kagome would never be left unsolved. Izayoi was a kind-hearted woman who made a living taking care of sick children at the local hospital.

Kagome was about to take a bite out of her bread until it quickly was snatched away from her hands, finding it self in another person's mouth. "Inuyasha!" She yelled as her younger brother took a seat next her, spreading some jelly on his toast. He was arrogant and a jerk but even though he was 1 year younger than her, he always tried to act like an older brother.

"It's your fault. You always take so damn long to put something in your mouth." He said cruelly, taking another bite out of the bread, devouring it in seconds. It was annoying how he had a stack of pancakes in front of him and he still had the nerve to eat her food. She hated pancakes so she got up and slung her backpack over her shoulder.

"I'm leaving." She scanned the kitchen and parts of the living room before exiting the house. Sesshomaru was nowhere in sight in hopes she would walk with him. Though as she walked along the stepping-stones that led to the sidewalk she had a shadow of a smile place on her face. Sesshomaru leaned up against the white fence that surrounded the house with his arms crossed in front of him. It was like that position he was in was his signature pose but she just replaced her small smile with a glare as she approached him.

Kagome attempted to walk pass him but as expected, he grabbed her by the arm. "Don't you go running off." He said in his usual tone.

"I'm not running off. I just want to walk to school alone."

He flicked her forehead and they both started to walk along side each other. "I don't want to have the same incident to occur again."

She raised a brow at this said incident that she wasn't aware of. "What would that be?"

"Don't you play dumb you idiot. You skip school, went to the mall and got yourself in trouble with some guy who wanted to get with you. Your lucky I followed you."

She rolled her eyes as it all came back to her. It was a day that she felt like school, rules and regulations should just be swept aside. She had P.E. that day so she went to the mall and did some shopping until, like he said, she got into trouble. It was the scariest situation of her life trying to be forced in a car against her will but Sesshomaru came in time to save her. The strange thing was that he always was at the right time to save her but it made her happy that he worried about her so much even if he didn't show it.

"Yes I'm so lucky I have my own stalker."

"Your annoying. You brat."

"What ever. You're the one who waited for me to walk with you so deal with it." She hated showing him this bitchy side of herself but it had to be done. She would rather die than show him any feelings than sisterly love, that's it.

The blue sky was peaceful to look out and Kagome let out a sigh. It seemed wrong, it was wrong to feel this way but it was just done. She loved him and everything, her love, her feelings and everything in between can't be shown.

As they got to Tachigawa High that's when she put a glare on her face. The numerous squeals coming from the courtyard and the utmost stares that Sesshomaru always attracted were all annoying. She was jealous and her hands unnoticeable curled into a fist. She walked very close to her brother as if saying he was hers and hers alone but of course Sesshomaru would always let out a sigh at her questionable actions.

"What's with you? Every time you come to school you put that scowl on your face." Sesshomaru put a hand on his sister's shoulder that made her heart skip a beat.

"It's not like your doing the same thing and besides I'm leaving so you won't need to look at my face." As much as she didn't want to leave his side, she gave him a hellish glare and entered the crowded hallways. Every time I do this. It's stupid. She mused. It would be easier to just confront Sesshomaru and say 'I love you' but that would just be to easy. He was a 4th year and she was a 2nd year. It may not be an age so far away but there was still girl's that adored him but Kagome's feelings were different. It went past that and her feelings for him were different than any other 4th year girl out there.

"Hey! What's up Kags? So you gave your brother that old scowl and run away technique huh?" Sango smiled and put an arm around her friend's shoulders. She was the only one that Kagome had told about her feelings toward her brother. They were friends for all there life and she was the only one she could go to for advice.

"Shut up Sango. I'm just so depress."

"What. Hormones letting loose and you want to fuck your brother already."

Kagome elbowed Sango in the shoulder. "Shut up! People around you remember. Don't say it so loud and your totally embarrassing me."

"I was quiet. I didn't say it out loud so just tell him. Every time you come in here all depress I tell you to tell him but you just turn the other cheek. I swear your brother maybe hot but I think he'll go with it." Sango was a positive person. She had a boyfriend named Miroku who was a lecher at times but she still found positive outlooks on his groping so to say. It was a weird relationship but she was happy and she was a person who spoke without thinking, which made things quite difficult sometimes.

"Don't you get it?" Kagome and Sango made there way to an empty classroom and sat in the back as usual. "I'm his sister. It's a sin to even think things like that. I prayed ever since I was 7 for god to forgive my sins for such a feeling. It makes me cry sometimes because of this pain I'm feeling. You just don't understand Sango."

Sango sighed. "It's not a sin. Love is love, it doesn't matter if he's your brother. I mean look at Jakotsu, he's totally gay for your younger brother."

"But Inuyasha doesn't feel the same towards him. He wants to kill Jakotsu rather than be with him. So that's what's going to happen to me. I tell Sesshomaru and he's going to dis me and turn away from me. He'll never talk to me again."

"Your stupid." Sango grumbled, leaning her cheek on the palm of her hand. "He's going to college next year you know that?"

The news hit her like a tone of bricks. She knew he was going to college but every time that came up her heart would sink to the bottom of her stomach. Her face would pale and every single thing in her life would just disappear.

"I know that." She said miserable.

"So what. Are you just going to sit here and not tell him."

Her gloomy expression lightened and a smile crossed her face. "Yeah. That's exactly what I'm going to do. I'm not going to tell him. It's better that way." The bell rang through the halls causing students to fill every seat in the classroom. A lecture was something she didn't want to listen to. So she got up from her seat and blended with the students who came in and she went straight out. Sango on the other hand went to the door, staring down the hallway.

"Kagome! Where are you going!"

She didn't say anything but merely turned toward her and gave her a small smile. The hallways were empty, everything inside her was empty and she just wanted to go home. So that's where she went and she didn't care if Sesshomaru was going to yell at her for doing so. Her mother was off at work and her father just left for a business trip as always, so no one was home.

"Just perfect." She said with a smile. She walked across the cobblestones and opened the front door. There was no energy in her and she dropped her bag on the kitchen floor, walking up stairs and down the hallway. It was quiet but she stopped midway from her room, as Sesshomaru's door was open and caught her attention.

He never leaves his door open because he strictly liked his personal space. But even though it was a strict rule she walked to it and peered in the room. Her brows furrowed at the sight of her brother sleeping on the bed with a blindfold tied around his eyes. The light beamed at him and he failed to get drapes for his window so that's where the blindfold kicked in. He was a light sleeper; he needed every thing to be dark so he tied the black cloth around his eyes. It was weird but it made him sleep through the day.

Maybe... She stepped in the room ever so quietly. The rapid beat of her heart echoed in her ears; it made her hands shake to even approach him. The footsteps she took towards him seemed louder than it really was but she took little mouse steps. She didn't know what she was doing or what she was going to do but standing right next to his bedside made dreams flash in her mind. His lips were the only thing she looked at and temptation got the best of her.

Why were these things just scratching her mind? It was the most horrible thing to feel but her hands were placed beside his head. Hovering above him, she could feel his breath caress her cheek. She wasn't obsessed to be with Sesshomaru but she just loved him more than anything and realizing that he was going to leave soon, it crushed her.

She didn't kiss him, she didn't hug him, she didn't even have a good conversation with him and she was going to get one out of the 3. One kiss and I'll be happy. She moved closer and closer until the tip of her nose slightly touched his own. She tipped her head to the side to kiss his lips and a smile grew on her face, as she got closer to him. But as she was about to kiss him she gasped. Sesshomaru grabbed her wrist and she jerked up right, staring at him who lifted the blindfold and looked at her with a glare.

"What are you doing?" The question he asked made her want to kill herself. Did he know I was going to kiss him? Did he find out? The same question kept repeating in her mind. She felt tempted to get out of there but his tight grip around her wrist prevented her to do so.

"I-I should ask you the same thing." She couldn't believe she said that so smoothly. She was a nervous wreck but she kept her composure.

"Don't act stupid. What are you doing here? Didn't I tell you not to skip school?"

"I felt sick so I came home. So what are you doing here?"

"Don't turn the tables Kagome." He pulled her closer to him. She thought she was going to be pulled in to a kiss but his hand stopped her midway, laying right on her forehead.

"You don't feel sick. You skipped because you didn't want another lecture from your teachers right?"

"So what. Your doing the same so don't give me your lecture alright." She yanked her hand in attempt to get out of the room but he held on tighter. The golden eyes that pierced through her made a wave of heat course through her body. Just looking at him made a feeling of wanting get to her. She wanted to kiss him; she wanted him though that little fantasy was just a fantasy.

"Can you let go?" She irritable asked.

"Shut up. Now go back to school." She pushed her toward the door as he got up moments later, shoving her out of the room.

"I'm not going back."

"Yes you are.

"No I'm not."

"Yes you are."

"No I'm-"

"If your not going to school than tell me what you were doing in my room?" She involuntarily gulped. She felt her heart constricted and her breathing growing haste. What was she going to say? I was in your room because I wanted to kiss you. There was no way she could say such a thing so she stared at the ground, not saying a word.

"So? What were you doing in my room?" She was forced to look at him. His hand cupped her chin and her personal space was already pried into. The closeness of his face with hers made her breath caught. The magnification of his lips was overwhelming but the wordless reply from his sister made him annoyed.

"Are you going to answer me you little brat?"

He shook his head and let out a sigh. Sesshomaru pulled her closer to him and placed his lips on to hers. The breath that she wanted to let out was stopped midway as the lips that she wanted to kiss for years was right on her own. It was like she had in her dreams, she couldn't believe he was kissing him but she didn't know how to react. When he pulled away, what was she going to say? It was like something took over her as she moved back and reflexively slapped him across the face. Dreaming it was different from reality as the fear on her face showed ever so clearly.

Sesshomaru never smiled before, but when the corner of his lips lifted upright, she could feel a tinge of discomfort. "Experiment." He said streaking his fingers though his hair.

Her heart raced as he stepped toward her. It was evident that she was scared and that made Sesshomaru laugh for no apparent reason.

"I always wondered what it would be like to kiss you Kagome but it was nothing." The thumping in her chest was immensely painful. Kagome couldn't say anything nor could she do anything but listen. As soon as he got a hold of her, he cupped her chin and lifted it up toward his face, his hot breath caressing her cheek.

"You didn't think that I would kiss you because right little sister? Well it was an experiment and I came up with my own conclusion." Sesshomaru took a step back, turning on his heels and heading into his room. When she thought he was going to slam the door in her face, he turned back around and leaned his shoulder up against the doorframe with that same smirk on his face.

"I've been thinking about this a lot and to tell you the truth, you annoy me. I always have to save you, always have to watch over you and when I go to college next year I'll be glade because finally, I'll be away from you and your annoying bickering." Tears streaked her face, the door slamming and echoing in her ears. His voice didn't tremble, his tone didn't crack, and he was telling the truth. She bothered him and the thing that she felt for him was nothing but love toward him. Her heart ached, her knees buckled to keep from falling, as the trembling in her knees didn't stop.

"Be away from me." After getting the feeling back in her legs she leaned her arm up against the wall, struggling to get into her room. Her hand covered her mouth to keep from screaming. It was the cruelest thing that she had ever heard and registering it all in her mind made everything seem more painful.

She got to her room, closing the door and collapsing on the floor. Her tears masked her face and the only thing she wanted to do was die. It was something out of a movie and she only wish she could rewind it all. If it was going to end up like this she would have put up with her teachers lecture but it was done. The damage of her heart split in two was killing her.

Hate was something that she felt but it directed not to Sesshomaru but to herself. For a moment she stayed on her knees staring at her drawer for a long while. There, a glimmer caught her eye as the sun struck her dresser. She got up slowly, replaying the horrible events in her mind. The only thing that could take away her pain was laid on the drawer, begging for her to pick it up. The cold metallic metal that she placed firmly in curled fingers made her tremble even more.

"He hates me." She placed the razor on her arm but didn't slice through it. It just laid on her skin, her fingers itching to draw blood. Books, movies, TV, they were all things that she witnessed about self-infliction. She always told herself how stupid it was but this much pain couldn't compare to this razor. So with swift action she cut through, blood dripping from her arm moments later.

For some apparent reason it made the pain go away. The pain of rejection just faded away as she fell to her knees looking at the blood that dripped on to her legs. This forbidden love toward her older brother was a sin but she still loved him. He rejected her but this feeling couldn't go away and now she found something that could comfort her a little.

She stared at the ceiling as if it was the most important thing in the world and cried. "I'll never stop loving you Sesshomaru."