Am I So Blind or Is It To Late To Love Him? by LordSesshomaruLover16
These Tears I cry For You
Am I So Blind or Is It To Late To Love Him? by LordSesshomaruLover16
1. These Tears I cry For You
Kagome didn't know what to do InuYasha told her he never loved her and she was nothing but a jewel detector and that is the only purpose she would ever serve.
"I don't know what to do." No one loves me, whats so wrong with me?
Suddenly something clicked in her head there had been someone that loved her and she ignored him to keep chasing after her fantasy of her and InuYasha being together.
"He loved me, but i was to blind to see how much he cared for me how much he was there for me when InuYasha wasn't i pushed him away."
"why am i so stupid someone did love me, but i bet he doesn't care anymore because i hurt him without realizing how bad i was hurting him.
He probably hates me, he probably never wants to see me again.
Sesshomaru, i need to see him i want to tell him how i feel and how stupid ive been i love him i know that i do now i need him.
She worked up the courage she needed to go and look for him in the last spot she seen him.
The hotsprings near Kaede's village.
She set out in search for her love to find him and tell him how she feels.
She reached the hotsprings, but no luck he or anyone else for that matter was no where around.
She decided to sit and wait to see if he would show up.
As she sat there she started to remember the last coversation she had with Sesshomaru.
**************FLASH BACK**************
Kagome sat in the hotspring relaxing after another close call with a water dragon demon.
She washed the blood out of her hair and washed the grime and dirt off her entire body. "Aw this is nice.
"Maybe i should make a trip home, and go see my family i do miss them she though to herself."
Then she heard a smooth bartone voice,"little Miko it is not safe for you to be out here all alone un protected."
Sesshomaru i didn't know you were here.
What are you doing here?
This Sesshomaru was out patroling his lands and happen to come across a familiar scent on his lands i fallowed your scent in hopes of finding my little brother, but it seems that it was only you out here and alone.
Oh, I didn't know i was on your lands I'll leave i promise after i'm done bathing.
"Its quite all right little miko this Sesshomaru does not mind because after all i have grown quite fond of you little miko.
Kgome didn't quite know what to say all she could say was oh as a bright shade of red appeared on her face.
"Nothing to be embarrased about little Miko."
Sesshomaru, I'm sorry i do like you but my heart belongs to InuYasha.
"It seems this Sesshomaru waisted his time coming here, then i shall take my leave and we just remain allies.
Sesshomaru, please wait?
"Farwell little Miko, we will meet again."
h those last words Sesshomaru disappeared in the forest. There was nothing she could really do she did like Sesshomaru but, she was in love with InuYasha.
**************END OF FLASHBACK************
"How stupid was I?
She thought out loud.
She continued sitting there waiting in hopes he would come, but he never did.
She returned to the hotsprings every night in hopes he would show up or be there he never did and never was.
Why did she keep returning to this place she really didn't know all she knew is she wanted to see him again.
His long silver hair, the crescent moon adorn on his forhead, his smooth bartone voice and those beautiful golden amber eyes that could make her melt under his gaze.
She really missed him everything about him, there wasn't one thing she didn't miss about him she missed his arrogant ways she missed his cold stares she missed everything.
In the begining she didn't want to admit it to herself or anyone for that matter.
She refused to admit she was in love with Sesshomaru the arrogant jerk that tried to kill her on so many occasions.
But she finally gave in and admit it only to herself that she missed him dearly.
Even though her companions could see that she was in pain they said nothing to her, because they didn't want to cause her anymore pain.
She felt so empty with sadness, pain, and sarrow.
She needed him but he wasn't there.
Would he ever be there for her again?
She didn't know, but the only thing she could do is hope.
She hoped he would still want to be there for her, but she never saw him since that fateful night.
When he left she saw one emotion on his face sadness.
Sesshomaru was pained with hurt when she rejected him.
It hurt her to see him like that she still had nightmares of the hurt she inflicted on his face that night.
Suddenly she felt them she felt her tears she was crying.
She was so consumed by sarrow and pain it hurt so much all she could do was cry.
The tears seemed to never stop they kept coming full flood.
Suddenly it hit her she was all alone he wasn't coming she was waisting time coming here he would never be here he would never be waiting for her.
He probably moved on were her only thoughts and it pained her even more.
"Im alone, I don't want to be alone."
Everyone has somebody InuYasha has Kikyo, Ayame has Kouga, Miroku has Sango, and i have no one.
"I don't want to be alone anymore, she screamed as the tears kept pooring from her eyes.
How could i be so stupid chasing after InuYasha i could of had somebody to love now i have nobody.
I have no one to love and no one will ever love me im so worthless and useless to this world.
"Why was i even born?"
My life has been hell full of pain and hurt, I can't take it anymore.
She sobbed even more she wanted to die she didn't want to live knowing she was all alone with no one to love or to love her.
She cried herself to sleep.
********TO SESSHOMARU*********
Sesshomaru sat by the campfire of his camp thinking about Kagome in silence for Jaken, Ah and Uh, and Rin had fallen asleep.
All he could think about was what Kagome said to him back at the hot springs so many months ago.
****************Flash Back*****************
He had been patroling his lands when he came upon a familiar scent it was the scent of the human girl that fallowed the halfbreed around.
She was so close in to his lands and he wanted to know why and hoped his pathetic half brother InuYasha was with her so he could form an alliance to slaying Naraku.
As he approached the place where the scent seemed to be the strongest he noticed he was heading in the direction of the hotsprings.
He heared splashing around the hotspring so he was sure she was there and all alone.
But why was she out her all alone and un guarded as she bathed? He sniffed the air to make sure only her scent was there she was alone.
Was that half breed so dense to let his wench go off in the middle of the night to bathe without proper protection leaving her open for anyone to attack her?
He didn't know what came over him but , he decided to stay and guard her while she bathed.
Perhaps doing so he could get his dense little brother to agree to an alliance to defeating Naraku.
So he decided to stay and watch her bathe, he got bored after a while so he decided to make his presence known to the little miko wench.
little Miko it is not safe for you to be out here all alone un protected."
Sesshomaru i didn't know you were here.
What are you doing here?
This Sesshomaru was out patroling his lands and happen to come across a familiar scent on his lands i fallowed your scent in hopes of finding my little brother, but it seems that it was only you out here and alone.
Oh, I didn't know i was on your lands I'll leave i promise after i'm done bathing.
"Its quite all right little miko this Sesshomaru does not mind because after all i have grown quite fond of you little miko.
After his remark all she said as a bright shade of red appeared on her face.
Inwardly he smirked as a blush appeared on her face he loved the way he could fluster her up by the way he looked at her it never failed.
"Nothing to be embarrased about little Miko."
Sesshomaru, I'm sorry i do like you but my heart belongs to InuYasha.
"It seems this Sesshomaru waisted his time coming here, then i shall take my leave and we just remain allies.
Sesshomaru, please wait?
"Farwell little Miko, we will meet again."
I said those last words to the little Miko before i left i felt pain and rejected how could she not love this Sesshomaru i am everything women and demonesses fall at my feet with one smooth glance from my person .
He knew he was attracted to the little Miko that he was certain, but now that he thinks about... I love her but how she is a mierre human nothing but filth in the eyes of this Sesshomaru.
He didn't know when he began to have these feeling for the girl but he had them and they were strong.
"I cannot love a human wench ,that most clearly belongs to the half breed."
He knew InuYasha did not love the girl but he still kept her by his side.
Why he asked to himelf, why does she stay with him?
I will never understand her, but i can't keep lying to myself i love her.
but, she loves InuYasha not me.
He missed her so much her bubbly personality , her chocolate brown eyes, her beautiful smile that could take your breath away, he missed everything about her.
But he would never let himself be compared to the halfbreed.
He would not be her replacement for InuYasha.
If she were to be with him ,she would have to love him for him not because he was her second choice he wanted to be her number one her everything.
He loved her for that he was certain, but if she wanted to dwell upon the past so be it because he would not come second for anyone he would not be a replacement he would only be the one.
He sat there at the bottom of the tree leaning against it as he thought about the one he loved so much and how it pained him she didn't love him.
he made up his mind he would only come across her if an encounter with Naraku were ever to come up,but then it would only be as allies nothing more after Naraku's defeat they would remain only allies until then he would stay as far away from her as possible.
She would probably perfer this anyways since she is to busy hung up on the worthless half breed.
All he could do is sigh. slowly letting sleep capture him.
Thanks that it for now i hope you enjoy this fic ive worked the hardest on this one so far i know i have highschool dating and drama but this one seemed to be more important to get out so i hope you like it. Don't forget to rate and review ok new chapter should be up in a couple of days again thank you for reading!!~~~~