For what just to impress my so called boyfriend Inuyasha who does nothing more then insult me be as rude to me as much as possible then later bangs my whore of a cousin Kikiyo in the janitors closet only to come crawling back and beg for my forgiveness always saying the same thing "Im sorry" or "forgive me she ment nothing to me I wont do it again I love you" how amazing those three simple words always seem to break down my walls only to be used in such away that I could always see the glimmer of satisfaction in my cousins eyes another triumph to her never ending torment over me.

Which I returned with her always sobbing in fake tears to her ever reliable lap dog (a.k.a. My boyfriend) in which he would always berate me not to be mean to his overpriced whore then having me walking off and having him screaming out "Bitch" what can I say that title seems to stick with me.

I was a real bitch in high school I still am just not so much the years did some good "to get my act together" funny how those where the last words my mother said to me after one oh so "Bonding Sessions" that's code word for arguing which we did quite often everyday actually and it always ended me uttering those three words that no parent wants to hear "I Hate You!!"

And with me running off slamming the door in her face while my mother collapses on the floor crying her tears of sadness caused by me I hated it, I hated the fact that I caused her such anguish I hated her for making me feel guilty every time I walked away from her most of all I hated myself I wanted nothing more then run up to her and hug her like nothing else was important except for me apologising to her pleading her to forgive me promising to be a better daughter a better sister telling her. "I Love You".

Even in the end those words always seemed to late for the loss of my father and mother. "I Love You" always brought only death it always did in that end death came.