Selfish desire by dyinghappily

Selfish desire

I no own inu

Sesshoumaru breathed in air and exhaled. He stared out the window, out in the world that he had never been able to see. Then a knock on the door was heard. "Nani?" his voice rang out. "What do you want?"

"Young sire a new maid is coming to serve you" the woman said.

"Hm" sesshoumaru replied unemotionally. He didn't mind. One woman or the other they were all the same. They would look at him with hatred or ridiculed him, because he was diverse. No one had accepted him before. No one showed him love before. He was a freak, a person meant to stay in this room everlastingly. A fraction of him liked the long stillness. The other part of him wanted to break free of this place and run away from the stupid family who had locked him up. But there was another part. The other part of him was forlorn. The other part of him sought friends. He was always alone. He was surrounded by darkness. It was as if he couldn't hear and see and do anything else. It was just him. He wanted more than anything just one wish. He wanted a friend to play and laugh with. But after years of darkness, the words had twisted him. The words of loneliness were carved in his head. Then he had abandoned hope.

The old maid left sesshoumaru unaccompanied, leaving nothing but a plate of soup, and a spoon.

+^-^+

Kagome gave her mother one last good bye hug before leaving. "Good bye mom! Thank you very much for the new kimono! I'll see you in 5 years!" that was the last thing kagome had said before she left. She was to serve a master at a new palace. To tell the truth she had to because her mother was very busy and they need more money to buy clothes for souta. They were a very poor family but kagome however had great cleaning skills, so she was hired to be a servant for a rich family. When she left she promised that she will do her best and she will bring back all the money they will need

Her mom watched as kagome disappeared out if view. Her smile then eroded to a sad frown. 'I hope she'll be happy there' she thought as she walked back into the house to take care of souta.

"I didn't have a choice." Kagome thought as she was carried away from her loving family. 'I will think of you every day momma! I promise, and when I come back we will get all the clothes and food we need. Just you wait!'

Her mother cared intensely about kagome, and she knew that, so it was very hard for kagome to depart

+^-^+

Kagome looked up to the residence. It was enormous! She couldn't believe she was working in this house! She glanced up open the maid and asked "Whats going on?"

"From now on you will be the young sire's maid. You will feed him, clean his room. If you cannot find him in his room then I suggest you look in the gardens, those are the two places he can go to. If you are done with the job then you may depart to go else where. But if you wish to leave this place then we will understand. So we have moved your items into your rooms you may began to unpack if you want to." The maid bowed and left.

'What did they mean by find out what he is?' kagome thought. She walked where her room was. Rapidly, she began to unload all her kimono's and hakama's. 'I have heard that he was a bizarre one and was never to leave the house. But I question why?' she thought. 'Oh well I should just relax for today'

Kagome then walked to the outer surface, wanting to see her new environment. First she walked to the gardens; she had always loved the gardens. It was gorgeous, she could smell the fresh flowers that had just blossomed, and she sees the crystal blue of the lake. But most of all, it was like her secret hiding place where she could just lie down and rest. She was always at ease there.

She slid open the entrance leading to the garden. Kagome then took a breath. She then took calm steps to a nearby tree to rest. She took a seat near all the petite flowers next to her. Kagome observed her new surroundings. The blossomed everywhere, the trees were elevated and impressive, and the river was the most beautiful. Kagome narrowed her eyes. She saw something white, something long and white near the stream. Her first common sense was to get up and discover out what it was, and so she did.

She ran to the small white spot, but when she arrived, there was nothing. The colorless spot was not there. She looked about, could it have been a human being? A creature perhaps? Kagome looked downward to the river. She observed it carefully. She had expected to see nothing but water, but there were small ripples coming from the bread that had been tossed there. 'I knew it!' kagome thought 'some one was here. But who?' she stared inquisitively at the water before she twisted and walked back.

+^-^+

the night was heavy but the air was very much alive and still. Kagome could not slumber at all. Her inquisitiveness kept her up, she was like a cat, and she would never be content until she finds out what she wants.

Kagome twisted and turned in the bed, ruffling her new quilts. Finally she gave up on sleeping and she got up. Pushing away the covers she walked out of her room. The shoji door slid open quickly; she needed a fresh walk in the gardens.

The cold midnight air hit kagome like a crash of a wave. It was always so breezy and chilly out at night. She glared at the moon as she walked over to a tree. Today there was a crescent moon placed in the sky. The moonlight bathed kagome making her seem more beautiful then usual. The light played around in kagome's hair, leading all the way to her kimono. The wind softly brushed by her soft skin, stroking it. Her hair wavered into the pitch black of the nighttime, hiding in it.

Kagome glanced over to the pond. Then that's when she saw it. The white smudge was there again!!

This time she will find out what it is! Kagome's heart rate sped up as she ran faster and faster still. But she had found nothing when she arrived. The only thing she saw was a pair of amber eyes. Kagome collapsed on the ground in defeat. "Darn!" she whispered to herself. She gave out a little sigh and flopped on the grass. She just wanted to relax now. She didn't get any sleep and she has to work tomorrow. 'Darn it!' she thought. 'I got to get some sleep' she shut her eyes and allowed herself to let go of all her troubles right now. She let herself slip away into a peace and quiet place and closed her eyes.

+^-^+

the sun's beam's poured onto kagome's body. Her eye lids rose up slowly, to tire to get up. Kagome forced her eyes open and sat up. 'Is it late?' she asked herself. Her blue eye's met with the burning sun. 'Own!' she thought. "Wait a minute..." she said. "UWWAAAHH!!! I fell asleep in the garden! I have worked to do!!" she screamed. Without hesitation she lifted her self from the grass and ran to the head of the house for orders.

She dashed through many rooms and passed many people. When she had arrived her breath was ragged and heavy. "Gomen! Gomen!" kagome shouted. "I'm sorry! Please forgive me!" she bowed many times to the head maid.

The woman glared intensely at kagome but then said "for not getting here on time you will be punished."

Kagome gave out a big sigh and nodded yes. She should get punished, she deserve to because she was suppose to get up early but she didn't. Now what are they going to do? Slash her? Injure her? Make her do hard duties until blood starts to come out of her skin!???!! "I understand." Kagome said as quite as she could.

The elder maid nodded. "For a punishment you will change the second brother's bed sheets" That's it? Change a guy's bed sheets? That wasn't too hard of a challenge! Heck she could do that any time. She cracked a big smile and nodded quickly. "Good" the maid said. "After you will serve breakfast to the elder son. The bed sheets are in the extra closet in the other lords rooms so don't worry. When you have completed your task come back. The young lord's room in at the right corner the elder lord's room is at the left.""

Kagome nodded and rushed to the right corner. When she arrived she gave the door a small tap. "Ano... young sire? I must change your bed sheets." Kagome waited for a reply but she got none. "Young sire?" she tapped again to make sure he was there.

"Alright! Alright! I'm freaking coming bitch! Stop that tapping right now!" a gruff voice shouted. Kagome's face swelled up. How dare he say that to some one who wants to help him!? What a jerk! But kagome tried to look calm and waited for him to open the shoji door. As soon as it slid open a tall handsome man came out. His silver hair was held back in a hat and his yellow eyes were staring right at her. He bent down a bit. "So you're that new bitch they sent eh? You not that great." He scoffed and let her in.

Kagome stayed quiet trying to hold her anger at the man. This is the horrible punishment eh? I'll bet no one wants to do this, and take his stupid ranting. He had such a fowl mouth for a man. He was also a strange one too, he wore a hat in doors and he has white hair. "Excuse me young sire" she asked politely. "Why are you wearing a hat in your room?"

"Because I want to know do what your suppose to do." He commanded pointing to the extra bed sheets next to him. Kagome's anger went up 10 fold; this guy was such a jerk! Had he no respect for any one!? Kagome grinded her teeth and nodded. She tried to cover up her anger and smiled sweetly. "feh." He started "don't try to cover up your anger. I know your emotions. But guess what? I don't fucking care!" he shouted.

He could cuss at any one he wants because he knows that a small servant won't speak back at him. They always had to respect him because he was the great son of Inu Taishou! Oh joy!

Kagome got even angrier. "Listen here you!" she screamed "you may be rich, and you may be better but I don't have to take this from you! I bet you can't even change your own kimono, much less change the sheets, so be happy that I'm even here and be quiet!" kagome grabbed the sheets angrily and went to his bed, still grumbling.

These servants different. She didn't just stay quiet she spoke back. No one had ever treated him like that. But the weird part is that he liked it, he like how she treated him like a normal person and not just a money spree.

"There done" kagome said. She turned back to leave but before she left she heard his gruff voice. "Hey!' it called out. "Whats your name bitch?" kagome walked out of his room, just before closing the door she said "kagome" and left. 'Kagome Heh? I'll remember that' he thought.

+^-^+

What a jerk! Kagome thought as she headed for the kitchen to grab the elder sons breakfast. How dare he say all those rude things to me for nothing!? Kagome swiped the food away from the cooks of the palace. I just hope that the other son is much kinder. Let me repeat the part "hope".

Kagome knocked on the other brother's door. "Nani" a velvet voice rang out. 'Such a deep voice!' kagome thought.

"Sire your breakfast." Kagome whispered. She thought that he would come out and take it but he didn't. "Leave it out" he commanded. "But you have to come out"

"Do as I say" he hissed. Kagome's head blew out steam! Is it possible for everyone in this house hold to be a jerk!??! If this is how he wanted to play it then so be it.

"No" she replied. "You have to come out now to get your food" she demanded.

"Pathetic servant." His voice rang out. "If you return to the head maid with that food she will see that you have not given it to me. There for you shall be given a punishment."

"Well young master. I can eat it my self then!" she yelled. She sat down, grabbed her chopsticks and began to eat. "You better come out here!" she yelled out. "It's really good! Do you hear me!" all she could hear was silence. She finished up the rest of the food and stood up. "Jerk" she whispered under her breath as she walked away.

+^-^+

Damn. It was late in the afternoon and he had nothing to eat. It was all because of that knew servant! She was so disobedient. His stomach was grumbling like an avalanche. He gripped onto his stomach once more.

Tap. Tap. The noise reached to his ears immediately. In less then a second he rushed to the door and waited for the maid to say something. "Young sire" the small voice peeped out. It was always just young sire. It was never just sesshoumaru; they always addressed him with that stupid tone. How he hated it! He hated how he only had servants and no friends. "Your meal" the voice broke through the thoughts.

"Leave the food out" sesshoumaru commanded.

"No way" the girl giggled. "I'm not gonna let you eat a single bite unless you come out." She teased.

This woman was making a mockery out of him! She was suppose to obey him not tease him! What was wrong with her!? He was mad now, never in his life he had this hard of a time with anyone, much less a girl. "Listen bitch" he said, his voice stern. "Do as I say and leave"

"Well then." Kagome started as she took a seat on the floorboard. "Come out, or else I shall eat your food. Again. In the same day. Now" when she heard no reply, kagome shrugged it off and dug in. the food was excellent! She loved it! Kagome chewed loudly so that he could hear it.

'Bitch!' his mind roared out. 'How dare she do that?!' but still he refused to go out. Minutes seemed like hours. The time slowly ticked away, when kagome was done she placed down the chopsticks on the bowl and left. 'How dare her. She made a mockery of this sesshoumaru' he thought. He had lost. To a maid. He lost to his maid. The maid that he was supposes to have control over with.

Sesshoumaru leaned back and inhaled. The air blew in his lungs and out. He let himself relax a little. Fine, if that woman want to see him that much then she will. When she does, she will run away, like all the others have. Yes, he shall wait for the right moment. Humans were so pathetic. They were driven by fear, and hatred. A human is selfish and undeserving; they reject difference and want everything to themselves. And this human was no different from all the others.

+^-^+

Another sleepless night. Kagome thought. She walked up from the sheets of her bed and went to the kitchen. Maybe a small snack will calm her nerves, but if anyone catches her then she will be in deep trouble. But here are kagome's deep and intricate thoughts. "I don't care"

Kagome made her way to the kitchen. Just before she got there she heard a shuffle. As soon a she heard a small peep she turned away. 'Who could be up this late at night?!' she thought. 'Oh no what happened if they saw me?' she started to panic. Her heart pumped faster and faster. 'Oh no!' she thought. Her hand gripped onto the silk kimono and she began to sweat. Hot water started to produce from her head.

"I know you are there" his silky voice said. "I can hear the nervous beating of your pathetic heart." He spat out coldly. "If you show yourself right now I shall not harm you, I shall take pity" he said coldly. He waited for a figure to show.

Kagome then turned to him. She had shut her eye's closed, ready for the impact of what ever it is to come. She peeked her ocean eye's open. At first she was shocked to see the man. Was he a man? He didn't even seem human!! His narrow honey eyes stared at the young woman. He steadily breathed and waited for words to pass her lips. But instead he heard nothing but a small gasp. Kagome then shut her eyes and shouted in a whisper "gomen ne!"

'That voice....' he thought. 'Its, the loud mouth servant' the thought came out bitter, with hatred coated on top. "You" he bit out. "You were the fool who ate all my food." He took to steps forward to her. He could tell that she was afraid. Her small figure crouched down and her shining hazel eye's darkened. She was going to run, like all the others. She was no different.

"I'm sorry" she was able to choke out. She pushed her hands in front of her face, showing a bit of defense. Kagome did feel a little guilty, I mean she was nothing but rude to him. And she had eaten all of his food. "I know. How about I cook you some soup?" she offered, trying to make him happy. "I can cook up really good soup and really fast to!!" she implied, trying to settle him down.

Sesshoumaru's eye's narrowed. She wasn't running. She was different, oh well it was only a matter of time though. "I suppose that soup will hold me." He crept closer to her. "But if you ever do a stunt like that I will make you suffer" his voice went from loud to a thin but deadly whisper.

Kagome's body shook and she said shakily "hai" kagome rushed to the cooking part of the kitchen.

She still didn't run, or scream, or do any of the above. She was different alright, but he had one more thing that would make her run back. He turned to his claws. 'Yes' he thought 'I know what will make her scream' he walked to the table and sat down. No not soon kagome held up a bowl of soup. She had a silly grin on her face.

"I made it myself" she said proudly. She was about to set it on the table but instead, sesshoumaru gripped on the bowl. His large claws were certainly noticeable and were very threaten. The claws seemed to pop out at her! Kagome suddenly grew fascinated. "This is strange!" she said. "What are you?" she asked. She backed off a few steps and she started to fear him. She couldn't run away, her job pays her well and she could share it with souta and her mom. Kagome then shut her eyes and thought about souta and her mom.

Sesshoumaru grew frustrated. "I don't understand" he spat out. "Why don't you run, like all the others?" he glared at her.

"Because I cant!" she shouted. "This is the most important job of my life and I have to keep it! Besides my mom and my brother depends on me." She covered her face and began to shiver. 'She's different.' Sesshoumaru thought. 'She's nothing like the others.' "Woman" his voice called out. "What is you name?" he demanded. Kagome let go of the grip on her face.

"Kagome" she whispered.

"Sit with me" he commanded, his voice rough still. Kagome quickly rejected his offer.

"I can't. You are the lord, I am your servant I was meant to serve you not eat with you" she said respectfully. She gave him a bow and started to walk away, hoping to get as far away as this man as possible.

"I am your lord, which means that I command what you do. I command you to sit" he narrowed his eyes at her, showing her that she should do as he says. He saw kagome stop and turn around. She sighed and bowed. 'I hate it when other people are right.' She thought sadly.

She watched as sesshoumaru ate. "Excuse me my lord" she said politely "I really don't want to be rude but, what are you" he turned to him. She quickly covered her mouth in shame. Realizing her mistake she said "I'm so sorry! I didn't mean to offend you or anything and me um..." she trailed off and blushed with embarrassment. 'I feel so stupid' she thought.

"I'm not a pathetic human, I shall tell you that." he said as he drank more soup. "It's a curse that has been set on my family" he set down the bowl carefully. He started to get up and go back to his room but then this happened.

"That's horrible!" kagome shouted. "What has happened to you!" she asked worriedly. Sesshoumaru gave her a cold look then said "why should you care for me?" and he continued to walk down the hall and to his room. 'What a strange guy' she thought. 'His life must be hard. Living like this I mean' she picked up his bowl and walked to the kitchen.

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Kagome carried the tray carefully down the hall. The long kimono that they gave her was no help. The sleeves and the robe reached down to the ground and it was like dragging her feet. "Mi lord" her soft voice rang out. "Mi lord, I have your breakfast." She tapped the shoji door once more. She saw the shadow appear in the light. The tall figure arrived quickly.

"I have a name" his voice seemed irritated and angry. "It's sesshoumaru" he said. 'Killing perfection? That's not a nice name. Why couldn't it be bambi or bob?' she thought.

"Listen I want to talk about last night." She set the tray down. "I want to help you. I know what its like to be different. I can help you if you tell me Whats wrong. This curse must be really strong and I can try my best to help you." She offered. Kagome took a seat in front of the door and waited for sesshoumaru to sit down with her.

The shoji door slid open and revealed sesshoumaru. "Why should I let you help me?" he said coldly. "You know nothing about me." He sat down and began to eat the sushi that has been prepared for him. His cold golden eyes stared painfully at the ground.

"We both have misery" kagome said. "I have been away from my family. The two most precious people to me. And you are alone. We both are very depressed, maybe we could heal each others wounds" she said quietly. She smiled. "It would be nice to help out some one once in a while right?"

Sesshoumaru was taken back. No one has ever smiled at him before. Not even his own mother. But this girl was able to look past the beast in him, and stare at the man in the body. It was as if she was reading him like an open scroll. The more he saw her smiles the faster all the doubts in his head started to clear up. He said nothing and finished up the rest of his food.

Kagome took his silence as a yes. She grinned. "Can I see your room then?" she said happily. "I've always wanted to know what kind of person you are. A lazy one or neat one" she smiled. Kagome picked up the tray, and without permission she ran into his room. As soon as she did she was surprised at the mess. Scrolls apon scrolls laid on his desk and was tossed recklessly on the floor. "Wow! This room is messier then souta's!" she exclaimed.

Sesshoumaru got up calmly and approached the girl. Some how he liked the girl with him. She was so kind and happy, she was like the sun.

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day by day, night by night, kagome would come by his room and talk. Sometimes they would go out to the gardens and kagome would tell sesshoumaru about when she was small. Sesshoumaru never talked much but it was still fun. "sesshoumaru! Look sesshoumaru!" she shouted. "look at all the stars in the sky! They are so pretty!" she pointed wildly at the sky.

Billion and billions of light was sprayed on the sky. Sesshoumaru didn't care at all though. they were just stars after all. He looked up at the sky. The crescent moon was up in the sky today. 'that's my sign.' He thought. His hands went to his temples. he closed his eyes once more. When he opened his eyes he saw kagome right in front of him.

"Sesshoumaru!" she shouted. "We've been friends for 3 moon cycles! Please tell me the curse!" she looked directly in his eyes. "Please" she gripped onto his hand. "I care about you and I just want to help you!" the way that kagome looked at him, it had made him feel different. What was it about her? Was it because of her smiles? Her laughs? It was because she cared. She didn't worry about the fact that he was a monster, she only cared that he was sesshoumaru. And for that, he wanted to thank her.

He glared at his claws. He was a freak of nature. Something that was suppose to never happen. "This curse happened when my father was still young" he began. "My father had angered and killed a which, due to his bravery" he spat out. "The curse was that very first son that is born, is a demon. Then half demon and then human. This line will continue until we die. I don't mind. I like the power, I crave it"

"wow! There must be a way to end this curse!" kagome shouted, she was determined to make him back to a human.

"Do not worry I like the power." He paused. "But everything has its price." He hated to be alone in the world because of what he was. Rejected from the world he made it up by searching for power. Before any other movement's kagome griped on his hands and cuddled near him. 'If you had just one fried would you be lonely?' she asked herself in her mind. "I'm sorry" she whispered.

Pity. He hated pity and that was what she was giving him right now. He threw her off of him and said cruel fully "don't give me pity at all, I don't need it." He spat at her. Kagome let go of his hands and recoiled back in fear. She then gave him a look that he resented. She showed fear. He stopped and regretted what he had said, the moment he saw her face.

Somehow he didn't want kagome to look at him with eyes of hate and fear. Kagome tilted her head down and said "I don't pity you sesshoumaru its just that I don't want you hurt and I want to help you any way possible." She gripped on to her kimono tightly.

Sesshoumaru then gripped on her hands. He didn't say anything but continued. He saw kagome blush a bit, but after all of that he forgot about what he had done, he forgot about what she said to him; instead he said "stay here tonight"

Kagome gave a small nod and smiled a bit.

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Kagome looked around the room. It was so filthy! Scrolls were on the ground, and covered the bed and tables. Left over food was dumped on the ground. Kagome walked in. "wow! You can really live here?" she asked him incuriously. She bent down and placed the scroll on the table. "This is so amazing." She said again. Sesshoumaru stood behind the young girl.

"No one comes here" he said silently. Kagome just seemed to ignore him and continue to pick up the scrolls left on the floor.

"How many scrolls do you have?!" she asked excitedly. She opened one up, but all the signs and stokes of the brushes confused her to no ends. She didn't care though. She would love to learn about all the words, she wanted her knowledge to be as high as possible! She knew that couldn't happen though, it was against law for girls to learn. 'Maybe....'she thought. "Sesshoumaru?" she asked. Sesshoumaru raised a brow to tell her that he was paying attention. "Um... can you teach me? How to read and write I mean." She said happily. She looked down the scroll. "In all of my life, I wanted to learn, to be educated. No one taught me, so can you?" she asked. Hope brimmed her sapphire eyes and passion heated her pupils.

He gave a nod. "Its isn't as easy as it looks though." He said. Walking to his table he wept off the dust and scrolls. "When do you wish to begin?" he asked. Turning his face, he said "you may start today, if you wish it"

Kagome gave a nod. Since there was only one chair she instead stood next to him. Sesshoumaru noticed this, and without saying anything he scoot over a bit and gave a gentle pat on the space near him. "Sit" he commanded. Kagome had to obey her master, and this was no difference. She gave out a nod and took a seat.

Her flushed face became quickly noticeable when she was so close next to sesshoumaru. Their bodies brushed against each other lightly and ticked their flesh. Kagome pretended not to notice while sesshoumaru just sat there and watched her blush. Without saying anything else he grabbed a brush and dipped it in ink. Pulling a scroll near by he began to write three symbols. "ich, ne, san" he said.(AN that means one two three in Japanese.). Handing the brush to her kagome tried herself.

"ich, ne, san" she repeated. Sesshoumaru took a look at her work. Pretty good, but it was sloppy.

"Let's try something harder." He challenged. Grabbing the brush again she took more storks. "This is love." He pointed at the character. "And this" he said, applying more ink to the scroll. "Is 'to protect" he gave the brush to her. Kagome slowly grabbed it. Afraid of messing up she hesitated.

"Love" she said. "And to protect" she said. With a few strokes she finished the characters. "Is that good?" she asked, looking up to sesshoumaru for help. Sesshoumaru shook his head. He placed his warm hands over hers and guided her how to write the characters.

"Let it flow" he said. Without even knowing what he was doing, he pulled her closer to him and held on to her small hands tightly. The warmth of his hands engulfed her own. A faint blush covered kagome's face, she was positively red!

She had never had any experiences with a man, and he was a man. She shook her head, what was she talking about!? He was a jerk! He was always cold and so distant, no way would she ever think that way, besides, and he was her master. At that thought kagome couldn't help but feel the twinge of pain that hit her like a barrage of waves. "Hai..." she shakily said.

As she wrote more words she began to wonder. "sesshoumaru-sama?" she asked. He raised a brow to show that he was paying full attention. "I also served another person that lives in the castle. His hair was a silver color like yours, who was he?" she asked, her head cocked at the left.

"My half brother" he spat out. His voice was laced with such hate and anger! Why could he despise this man so much? "He's half demon" he bit out.

"Milord, why do hate him so?" she asked.

He didn't answer, instead he wrote down more words on the blank scroll, telling her that he didn't want to talk about his anymore. Kagome took the hint and began to copy down the words.

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"sesshoumaru-sama!" kagome cried out. "Come on! Let's go outside together!" she smiled. Sesshoumaru tried his best to ignore her, but failed miserably. "Sesshoumaru! You have to go out in the open sometimes! You can't stay here forever!" she cried out.

"I can, and will" he calmly said.

"But sesshoumaru-sama!" she whined. "We can try to put a hat over your head, and let your hair cover your ears! You wont be noticed that much!!" she shouted as she latched on to his leg, pushing the scroll aside. "We can go outside! Don't you want to!?" she screamed. "No one will notice and it's going to be just us two!" she shouted.

Sesshoumaru took one glace. Maybe he should, I mean it was only the two of them! No one else, and he loved to be with kagome, and he could breathe fresh air. When he was going to say yes kagome had already put a hat on him. "Here you go!" she shouted. Kagome then lifted her hand to her master's head, covering his forehead with his bangs, and then she used her warm hands and freed Sesshoumaru's hair from the back of his hair.

Kagome blushed, her soft hands made contact with his warm skin and all she could do was stay there blushing. She loved everything about her master, he was handsome and smart but most of all, he is starting to treat her as a real friend.

"Let's go!" she shouted. Grabbing his hand she led him out the garden. "We can climb over that wall, and then we-"

Before more words can pass her lips she was wisped away by sesshoumaru. His arms wrapped tightly around her body, her legs on top of his arms and her head in his hands. "I have an easier way." He said. He gripped onto her tightly and used his demon powers to leap into the sky and make it out the castle.

Kagome eeped and grabbed onto his chest. Her hands clamped on his chest as they cleared it out to the castle. "Na-nani?!" kagome shouted. "Why didn't you tell me that you can do that?!" When her feet touched the ground she pulled of his body, but instead of letting go he hesitantly released his grip.

For a moment they looked away from each other, and then kagome broke the silence. "Um. we have to be back by noon, so we have to use our time wisely." She whispered. Trying to forget what happened kagome grabbed his hand and said "this way to the forest." She tugged at his kimono and urged him to continue.

"Why the forest?" he asked.

"Because it's a long time since I've been there, and besides, I love it there!" kagome smiled softly at him, with that small spark in her eyes that was always there for him and only him. "There's all sorts of trees and it smells fresher, but first we have to pass the village, but that's not a problem!" kagome pointed up ahead. "See! There's a lot of people there." She couldn't wait to go to the village, kagome had always loved to go to the orphanage and help out, and other times her mom would tell her to buy food from the market. She loved to go out, and inhale the fresh air.

When they arrived sesshoumaru was shocked at all the smells. There was people, food, fire, and so many other things. His face scrunched up into an expression of pure hatred. They were all so filthy and unclean! How could anyone stand this?! The only fresh scent was kagome. Beside him was the only clean human he had ever met. She smelled of roses in the morning, sprinkled with dew and fresh. Moving closer to kagome he whispered to her "how long until we reach our destination?"

"Wait and be patient." She said. Stopping by a stand that was selling apples, she took out a few coins and handed it to the storekeeper, the store keeper thanked her and kagome grabbed an apple. "I want to eat something healthy first!" when she was just going to take a bit of her apple a small whimper stopped her. Kagome looked to where to voice was coming from, a kid. Below her was a small girl, about 8 years old.

"Missus? Can rin have that apple?" the young girl asked.

At first sesshoumaru had expected her to say no and then walk away with him, but instead kagome broke out into a smile. "Sure thing!" she handed her apple to the young child and bent down to her. "You must be hungry." She pointed out when the 8 year old girl started to scarf down the food like no tomorrow. "Slow down you'll choke!" she giggled.

"Sorry, but rin is so hungry!" she said. "Rin hasn't eaten in a long time!" she rubbed her tummy to show that she was still hungry.

Kagome giggled then turned to sesshoumaru. "Sesshoumaru, I'm going to buy more apples, just wait here" she smiled. Sesshoumaru watched as kagome went back to the stand. How can someone be so kind to someone else without even knowing them? He thought to himself. Kagome had always put others before her, but he didn't know she was so caring. Sesshoumaru turned to the dirty girl eating an apple. "Where are your parents?" he asked.

"Rin lost rins parents" she said sadly. Taking another bite of the sweet fruit she then asked him "mister! Whats your name?" she looked at the tall man. Rin cocked her head, why was he hiding under that hat? Was there something on his hair?

"Sesshoumaru" was all he said before kagome came.

"Here you go!" kagome cheered. She handed her 5 apples. Rin gladly ate them and muffled out a thanks. "Let's go sesshoumaru" she smiled. Kagome grabbed Sesshoumaru's hand and led him to the forest.

Sesshoumaru had never been treated this way before, with kindness and love. Every time kagome's hand wrapped around his hand he felt strange, as if he wanted to squeeze her hand and walk closer to her. And just to know what it felt like he captured kagome's hand in his and cocked his head at the warm feeling. Kagome looked up at him and gave him a huge smile.

Blood pumped faster through out his body, heat swelled up in his stomach. All he muttered out was "kagome..." and he remained silent.

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"That was fun!" kagome shouted. "Don't you just love the forest!" kagome smiled and hopped in his bed, tired from running all day long in the fields. Sesshoumaru stayed silent, not making a peep of sound. "You're so bring!" kagome shouted. "It's getting late, I better leave soon" she said.

Suddenly sesshoumaru found himself wanting her to stay with him. "The night is young, stay just a little longer" he said. Taken by surprise kagome nodded and said a silent oookkkaayyy.

"I know!" kagome said, jabbing a fist in the air, "let's go the gardens! We can spend the rest of the time there!" she smiled happily at him.

Without hesitation kagome had already ran to the shoji door and opened it to enter the garden. Kagome sniffed the air and let the wind cool her cheeks. Sesshoumaru slowly followed after kagome, taking his sweet time. By the time he was outside kagome was already sitting near a tree, leaning against the bark and waiting for him. Sesshoumaru took a seat and looked at kagome, then at the night sky.

"Its nice here" she pointed out. Leaning against sesshoumaru for support, she closed her eyes and smiled. 'As long as it's with you' she thought happily to herself.

"Kagome..." he trailed off. He couldn't understand why she was so kind to him, why she was so caring to him, why she was so precious to him. Sesshoumaru turned to her, catching her attention. Kagome lifted her eye lids, "yeah?" she said.

Without any thinking he observed her closely. Her pink lips teased him, luring him closer, and that was exactly what he did. Not thinking at all his lips were crashed to hers! Sesshoumaru sucked and nipped at her tender flesh, when he pulled away for breathes he still wanted more, he wanted to kiss her senseless! Sesshoumaru got closer to the small woman and captured her lips once more, this time he licked her lips first and asked for entrance. He could feel the heat, radiating off her body and it made him aroused.

How long? How long did he think this way about her? He had loved her so much, she was sweet, kind, and lovely. Most of all she had accepted him, for what he was and that's all that was important to him.

Sesshoumaru ran his big hands up her thigh and let his thumb brush her hot, moist core. Kagome moaned at his bold move and let her own hands come up to tangle in his hair. She could feel his silky threads slide between her fingers as she grabbed a handful and held on for dear life.

Sesshoumaru took his thumb and brushed her again. After receiving another moan, he moved his hand so that his fingers could start to stroke her. Never once did he stop kissing her neck and chest. He moved his free hand to her right breast and started to massage it with urgency.

She arched into his touch, taking as much from him as he offered. Sesshoumaru increase the pressure on her breast until she started to pant heavily. From both sensations, Kagome was getting really warm and excited. She started to grind into his hand and arch her back so that she could feel his hand roughly handle her.

Sesshoumaru moved his fingers to her wet opening and slide three fingers into her. He didn't give her time to get used to his assault. He knew she liked it this way. She was so tight and hot in her core, making him start pumping his fingers and find her special spot right before her cervix. With each pump of his fingers, he would brush it and cause her to buck against his hand. He started to moan, his erection was begging to come out.

Sesshoumaru moved his hand from her breast and quickly wrapped it around her back. He swiftly moved her so that she was positioned over him, straddling him. Kagome started to move with his hand more in this position and she dug her nails into his shoulder blades. New sensations started moving through her body and she pressed herself as close to him as possible.

He moved his free hand from her back and pushed the shirt she was wearing over her right shoulder. Her right breast was exposed to him and he greedily started to suck the nipple into his mouth. Sesshoumaru would bit her with enough pressure to hurt but not break the skin. He knew she liked the mixture of pleasure and pain. Her loud moan was his reward.

Kagome could feel herself getting close to her orgasm. Her body was shaking and her movements were becoming erratic against his hand. She into grinded his fingers as much as possible. It felt painful and sensual at the same time, bringing her higher and higher.

She moved her fingers back up to his hair and dug her nails into his scalp. Sesshoumaru moaned as he continued to suckle her breast. He grew tired of the right one and moved the shirt off of her other one with his nose as he seeked to give it the same pleasure. Kagome was starting to feel the tight winding of her orgasm. She started to cry in pleasure, only fueled Sesshoumaru to move his pleasure soaked hand faster.

Kagome arched her back suddenly and squeezed her eyes shut as her orgasm came over her. She screamed his name and pressed painfully into his fingers. Sesshoumaru could feel her muscles contract around his three fingers, causing him to moan with the promise of her tight sheath doing the same to his hard dick. He enjoyed the feel of her juice as it rushed down on his fingers and continued to his hand.

Kagome slightly relaxed her hold on him, as she came down from her high. When Sesshoumaru removed his fingers, she frowned in disappointment, missing his strong hands on her. She opened her eyes to witness him put his fingers into his mouth. He sucked them to try to get most of her juices off, as he tasted her. Kagome just watched him and felt herself groan at the site of him doing such things. It gave her satisfaction that he liked her taste.

Sesshoumaru moved his fingers from his mouth and brought them up to hers. Kagome bid his silent request to suckle his fingers dry of her cum. She ran her small hands up his arm, as she tasted herself on his fingers. Her fingers stopped at his wrist where she noticed he had some of her arousal on it. She removed his fingers from her mouth and looked Sesshoumaru in the eyes as she started to lick his palm and wrist free of her juices. Sesshoumaru brought Kagome against him as he fucked her, taking hard bits and soothing kisses at the same time, on her neck. Kagome was relishing in the feel of the mixed pain and pleasure. She could feel her orgasm coming again; the muscles were starting to spasm in her.

Sesshoumaru could feel her getting ready to cum and he quickened his thrusts more, his own coming soon as well. Suddenly, she gripped onto him for dear life as she spasmed around him. Her scream was loud as she cried his name to the heavens. Sesshoumaru joined her with the euphoric feeling, letting it wash over him.

He moved his arms and positioned them where he could wrap her against him. They were breathing hard and had sweat all over them.

Kagome gave out a small smile. She wrapped her hands around his neck. How long did she feel this way about him? How long did she wanted to do this? Very long.

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The maid gasped at what she had just saw. It was arousing and disgusting at the same time, she didn't know what to pick. She covered her small mouth with her hands and walked silently over to inutaishou. He had to know what was going on.

It was forbidden for a servant and a master to mate, it was just sick and wrong. The girls punishment will be hard and painfull, inutaishou was a very strict man and he obeyed the rules, wen he hears about this he will surely explode!

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"what!?" inutaishou shouted. The maid in front of him bowed in respect and fear. Her skin went cold and calmly, her lord was very powerful and very cruel. A lump formed at the miads thoat. "are you lying to me!?" he screamed at her. He rose form his high throne and face her.

"no lord!" she pleaded. " I only say what I saw!" she scrunched up her face and continued. "please believe me."

"why would a human like her be attracted to-to...a monster!?" he shouted. He slamed his fist harshly at the ground and screamed in frustration. This wasn't suppose to happen. His son wasn't to fall in love at all! His son was isolated from the world and he knew that, but still he was royalty and he couldn't marry some one of the lower class.

"wha-what shall be the punishment?" the maid asked.

"the maid" he whispered. "we will kill her"

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Kagome giggled and laughed. She loved to spend time with sesshoumaru! It was so great and sweet. "so is this how I write love?" she asked. A few strokes were made and along with another few characters. "I thought that love was only one character."

"it is" sesshoumaru whispered. "its just that, it says something"

"what!" she said excitedly.

"I love you" he whispered. His nose dug to the crok of her small neck. He inhaled her sweet scent, 'so delicious' he thought as his hands began to wander to her ass.

"sesshoumaru!" kagome shouted. A small blush spread to her cheeks. "yamatte!" she shouted.

"doshte? You taste so sweet" he whispered.

She had to find an excuse, any excuse! "uh..." she stammered. "I gotta get you food!" she shouted she ran outside and rushed to the kitchen, hoping to avoid the horny demon.

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Kagome carried the small plate of food happily to her master. Ever since their coupling he had been so much nicer to her. He loved her and she knew that. But the thing was that they had to stay secret if anybody knew they would kill her for that. "kagome!" a maid shouted.

Kagome halted. "yeah?" she said. The maid did nothing but pointed to the main halls. The main hall was where the lord spoke and when he announced things. "why do I have to go there?" she asked. The maid said not a thing but a a disgusted look at her and walked away. Kagome hesitantly walked to the hall, nervousness covered her body as she slid the door open.

She approached the lord and bent her head down to show respect. Kagome stayed quiet and hope that this was going to be good news. "yes my lord?" she said, her head still bent.

"your execution will be fast" was all he said.

Kagome's eye's widened. 'execution?' she thought. Fear crept to her body and pumped through her viens. 'they found out.' That thought hurled her into a fit. 'they knew'

Her hands began to quiver, her fingers trembled. Then the horrible truth came to her.

There was nothing she could do about this.

She was going to die.

"w-when?" she asked shakily. She balled her hands into a fist and stared hard at the ground, afraid. Suddenly a barrage of tears over swept her. This time not because of fear, but because of what was going to happen to sesshoumaru and her family.

"tomorrow." He said. Kagome still faced the floor, refusing to look at the mans face. Kagome nodded her head and waited for the lord to leave.

This was her fault. If she didn't rut with him, maybe this wouldn't have happened. Her throat dried up and sweat formed at her head. 'sesshoumaru..' she thought as she quivered. They had just fallen in love, and now this? How was hse going to tell him? No she couldn't tell him. He didn't want him to know that she was dead.

Kagome lifted her head from the ground and just sat there.

Memories of her love filled her head. Happiness, sadness, and anger. Those were the emotions that had bonded the two. Sesshoumaru opened up to her and gave her his trust, she was happy that he did. He was always so cruel, but during their time together they had fallen in love.

Kagome cried that night. She cried to her hearts contempt. Diamond tears streaked down to her beautiful face and sadness controlled her body. "sesshoumaru.." she sobbed out.

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The filthy wood bit at kagome's wrist. The chains on her small feet burned, and it leaved a small tail of blood in its wake. Kagome winced at the pain. "any last words?' was the lords question.

"yes" kagome whispred. "I'm sorry. I say sorry to sesshoumaru. Everything was my fault from the beginning. If I had just left the food out for him to eat, then maybe we would be happy still. I was so selfish, I wanted to be happy, I wanted everything my way. I was like a child, I kept wanting things never satisfied, so please forgive for that." Kagome's head lopped down.

The lord gave a sad glance at the girl. She was so young to die, but it had to be this way. He coulnt have some one fucking his son, that will only result into another freak. "ver well. Continue with the execution" he said.

'please' kagome thought as the axe hung over her head. 'smile one last time for me sesshoumaru.' And with that the axe dropped right on her head.

Blood was scattered.

Her head rolled off.

She never took a breath again.

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Blood.

Something reeked of blood. Kagome's blood. Sesshoumaru's eyes widened. So much blood... was kagome dead? Sesshoumaru gripped onto his kimono. 'k-kagome?' he thought. For the first time of his life, he was afraid.truly afraid. Kagome was dead. But why? Sesshoumaru stood up. Kagome. What has happened to her?

Without pausing he ran to where the scent of blood came from.

Kagome.

Kagome.

That was all he could think about.

When he arrived his destination he wanted to sob. Kagome blood was scattered everywhere. "what have you done?" he whipered. His voice grew louder. "what have you done!?" he clenched his teeth in anger. His kagome, his beautiful kagome, dead before his feet. "WHAT HAVE YOU DONE!!" he screamed.

His father rushed to kagome's dead body. "we had no choice." He said sternly.

Hatred and anger controlled sesshoumaru's body, and crimson red began to fil his eyes. Recklessly he attacked his own father. "you bastard!" he shouted and lnged at him. He had never been so mad in his life. He had never had such fury bottled inside him. Sesshoumaru slashed at him, but his father to was a demon, so he avoided every attack.

Inutaishou had no choice he had to kill sesshoumaru as well. He was to mad, and if he was sent free then he would kill everyone in the city. "hold your anger son!" he commanded, but sesshoumaru completely ignored him. Inutaishou this time attacked. His large hands dug inside his gut, blood spilled all over his body.

Sesshoumaru's eyes widned. The crimson red stopped and only his straight face was shown. Sesshoumaru bit down hard as he could as his fathers hand escaped his stomach.

Sesshoumaru fell hard onteh ground. "chikuso" he said as his vision blurred. A small pool of blood formed at his body, and his body went numb. Inutaishou approached his son. "you shoud have listened." He said. Sesshoumaru narrowed his eyes. 'body' he commanded. 'move.' He shouted to himself. 'let me fight! A little longer!' he screamed at himself. But it was no use. He was going to die, here now. Sesshoumaru looked over to kagome.

"kagome.." he moaned out. "forgive me." All his life he searched, for a friend. He was never kind to kagome and yet she called him a friend, and he was happy that way. Even though he cussed at her and mocked her, she never once complained about that, she listened to what he had to say, again and again. Kagome forgave him for anything he did, she never once doubted him, she never once called him a freak. She didn't deserve to die, she didn't deserve to leav this world, not now. "never once had a said sorry to you." He started "never once had a thanked you for what you have done for me. So please. Now I wish for you to forgive me for that." One last time he glanced over at the angel before him, and his eye lids closed, for the last time.

'I will find you.'

In the next world.

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AN done! Longest one yet. Anyways I don't own Inuyasha, or any other characters. I don't own the sex that was written either. I'm uncomfortable so I only copy and paste it. The sex is by beautifulsilent death. Anyways this took me a long time to write but I'm done!

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