THE WAY YOU LOVE ME by Inu~Lover

The Ugly Truth

Disclaimer: I in no way shape or form own InuYasha or any of the characters. Just the plot....

The way you love me

I've always been in love with you

I guess you've always known it's true

You took my love granted

Why oh why

The show is over say goodbye

Say goodbye.....

I Kagome Higurashi have had enough. Five years of jewel shard chasing can do that to a girl. Compound it with trying to lead a dual life successfully, one rude hanyou and a band of misfits that had become family and you had, well enough. I stamped heavily through the woods looking for InuYasha. After a day of riding us hard to find a shard he dumps the group to make camp and takes off. Sango went to go look for dinner. That leaves me with Miroku and Shippo. Shippo I could handle he is my adopted son, but Miroku well one has to be wary of him and his cursed hand. Curiously it wasn't the wind tunnel I worried about; nope it was the curse of the "wandering hand" that made me leery. So here I was looking for Yasha stumbling in the dark and cursing males in general. "Fuck" was the sound that wafted to my ears. "InuYasha" I yelled. No reply but a lot of rustling going on. I tried to fight my way through the bramble and undergrowth of the forest. I heard a tear, and looked down to see my haori had a rip. Wonderful, just fucking wonderful, here I was looking for Yasha to make sure he was fine and my damn haori rips. What a great way to end the day from hell. So tell me Kami what else could go wrong?

Suddenly I was ripped out of the bushes. "Kagome what are you doing here? Spying on me? Can't a guy get any privacy?" I stared at him. Okay maybe I shouldn't have followed him, but what the hell had I done to deserve the snarling, rude and hurtful welcome. I could smell my blood from where his claws had punctured my left wrist. "I just wanted to make sure you were all right. Lately you've been so distant. Is something wrong?" I went to touch his face. I caught a flash of red in his eyes before he threw me to the ground. As luck would have it I landed on my left wrist and heard it crack. Tears started in my eyes but I would be damned if I let them fall. I calmly stood up and started to walk away. I don't know why I was surprised when I felt the sting of his claws on my back. While I personally would have taken the high road, my powers had no such notions. For the first time since I met InuYasha my miko powers flared and burned him. He held his hands to him and snarled. "Oswari" I screamed and down he went harder than normal. Kirara landed next to me in her transformed size. Stupid me I didn't stop to question how she was Johnny on the spot if Sango had went in the opposite direction of InuYasha. I just climbed on and was grateful to get away.

When we arrived at the camp I threw myself into Miroku's arm. I may be an adult of 20 but I needed comfort as much as the next person. I stuttered the entire story out, with his arms still around me. He was quiet for a moment, and began to speak. "Kagome, all inu-youkai are very protective when mating. If you interrupted Inu-Yasha during mating, he would be vicious and nasty. All the Inu's care of is strength. The alpha male of a pack will always look for the strongest female in the pack and take them to mate. Any interference during this time can cause the youkai to injure or kill someone. Come let's us see to your injuries." He looked deeply into my eyes trying to communicate something to me. Miroku proceeded to bandage and bind my wounds. Sango and InuYasha arrived at almost the same time. Not good he still looked extremely pissed at me. I could hear him crack his knuckles. A part of me was scared another part sad. So he had finally chosen Kikyo. I would never be anything but a copy of the original to him. As he started towards me Sango jumped in front of him and held out a hand. I expected him to lash out at her.

Instead he stopped his charge. He didn't make any move towards her, no gentle words but suddenly everything clicked. I slowly made my way towards Sango with words like "strongest female of the pack" reverberating around my head. Damn, my entire world felt like it was crumbling. I reached out with a shaky right hand towards her kimono and pulled the collar down. There staring me in the face was undeniable proof, fangs marks had scared where her neck met her shoulder. I looked into her face and saw pity. Fuck, fuck and double fuck. Fury unlike anything I had ever known raced through my veins. I wanted to smack her, to hurt her like she hurt me. She held a hand up to me and I backed away. "Of all the people to betray me, you would have never come to mind. Kikyo yes, Naraku yes but you Sango WERE like a sister to me. You knew, you fucking knew that I loved him and never said a word! I hate you, I hate the both of you" as I continued backing up I felt Miroku's chest against my back. Another one who had known and kept this hateful secret, I even looked at Shippo and saw the confirmation in his eyes.

Great I am the last of the idiots to know. I maneuvered around Miroku and continue backing out the camp. "Kagome, please I didn't mean to hurt you, it just happened. I didn't know how to tell you about us, and didn't want to hurt you" she implored. It didn't matter, I had already shut down. When the pain becomes to much you have to escape it. So I whirled around and ran. I could hear InuYasha chasing me and decided a steady stream of Oswari would help my escape. When I didn't hear him anymore I cast a barrier to hide my scent. I walked steadily into the dark forest with no fear. If I died I did not care, at this moment I was an empty shell. I lay down in a bower of a tree, hoping when I woke up that this would all be a nightmare.

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You're frozen when your hearts not open......

"Lord Sesshoumaru, there's a women in a bubble over here" was the statement that woke me up. Great, perfect, a nasty day from hell yesterday and today looks so promising when the first person to deal with was Sesshoumaru. I squinted at the owner of the voice. It was a little girl around 10 – 12 years old, adorable with an orange kimono and a lopsided ponytail also known as Rin. Then the toad demon Jaken came squawking at Rin for running away. So then, all that was missing for this little party was the Lord himself, Lord Sesshoumaru the Great Taiyoukai of the West. "Rin, Jaken be silent" he stood and stared down at me. What did he see when he looked down his nose at me? Did he appreciate my green eyes with hints of gold? Did he see how my face had lost its childish appearance and how high cheekbones, pouty lips and a pert nose completed the ensemble? Would he look at my body appreciated the curves that nature and physical work had carved out. Or would he too see a copy of a long dead woman? I stared back at him, with no fear in my eyes. If he was going to kill me I would die with dignity. It was the only thing I had left at this point.

So there we were at a silent impasse when he cocked up an eyebrow and asked "Miko what are you doing out here by yourself? And where is the damn hanyou?" he tilted his head to get a better look. One glance at him and I knew that I was going to have to answer some questions. I took a deep breathe. "InuTrasha is with the rest of his pack, with his mate Sango. Any more questions Sesshoumaru-Sama?" His lips twitched, whether from the sarcasm or the InuTrasha comment I didn't know nor care. I stood up and bowed. "Good day Sesshoumaru" and turned to leave. I still had my barrier, so I shouldn't have to worry right? Wrong!

I felt his youkai flare and started to run. Note to self. Higurashi you don't run from dog demons it just triggers their instinct to chase! But fuck it; it was too late for me now. Had to try to and get to the woods and cover. Not too bright Kagome! I felt a claw hand grab me and turn me around. Two things occurred. One my barrier did not fade in fact it grew stronger and expanded. The second thing it did was explode and throw us both back a few feet. I flew threw the air and knew any second I was going to crash into something and really injure myself. Before I could land I was caught in a strong arm. Confused at hell I looked up at Sesshoumaru and almost fainted.

I could see from the corner on my eye Rin was holding Sesshoumaru's right hand and bouncing up and down. Jaken was jumping up and down screeching. The explosion of my power had deafened me a bit so his words were lost on me. I saw Sesshoumaru look slowly down at Rin, and then look over to me held in his left arm. Wait a minute left arm? InuYasha had cut his arm off five years ago in their father's tomb. Wonderment filled his eyes at the sight of his arm. And then the bastard dropped me to twist his arm about inspecting it. Wouldn't you know, I landed on my left wrist again, crack! This time I let the pain take me.

The last sight I saw was Rin's concerned face peering intently at me.

Explanations & Revelations:

I'll be your guiding light

In your darkest hour

I'm going to change your life

I'm like a poison flower......

I woke in a room I did not know, on the most comfortable bed ever. If this was paradise sign me up now. I turned over and almost yelped. There sitting in a chair was none other than Sesshoumaru. I started edging towards the edge of the bed. "Miko, if you value your life you will stop moving" so I did what any smart person would do. I froze. Okay now what? "This Sesshoumaru would like to know how you a mere ningen was able to accomplish what no Youkai healer could. How did you restore my missing arm?" I was so dead. The first conversational thing out of his mouth besides 'I'm going to kill you' and I don't have an answer, well here's hoping the truth will set you free.

"Sesshoumaru-Sama, I don't know exactly how I restored your arm. I was told that my powers would reach new summits as I aged and came into my powers. But as far as I have been trained, you should have been purified when you touched my barrier not healed." I bowed on the bed and closed my eyes after this announcement. Call me old fashioned but if he was going to rip my throat out and kill me I did not want to see it coming. The silence dragged on, so after a few minutes I cracked open one eye. Only to see the jerk sitting back staring at me, like I was some sort of science project. "Miko, you will take a bath and then join me in my study" I huffed. "My name is Kagome. Ka-go-me, got it Fluffy-Sama?" Oh shit there went my mouth again.

"Well Ka-Go-Me. One this Sesshoumaru is not FLUFFY and two, I could not call you by your name without your permission since we have never FORMALLY been introduced." Wow was it hot in here? And where was the damn hole in the floor when you needed it. Sesshoumaru stood up and bending so his eyes were close to mine and reiterated for me to meet him in the study. I was fine with that, I even didn't argue when he told me to wear the kimono at the end of the bed. No blinking when told to take a bath since I was pungent. I did jump and wonder when he sniffed and nuzzled my neck. Okay who was this and what had he done with the real Sesshoumaru?

Now I normally dawdle in the bath. I'm that kind of girl. To me there is nothing better than sitting in a fragrant onsen and relax as the heat helps get the kinks out of my muscles. Today however was a speed bath. No way in hell would I want an angry Sesshoumaru storming into my bath to find me naked and vulnerable, did I? Yes I'm a virgin, but hey I grew up in a time where sex is PREVELANT and no one is really a prude. I've seen pictures of naked men so when I started to imagine Sesshoumaru naked, WOW! Okay enough of the fantasy about my host naked. I jumped out and began the arduous task of trying to get all the layers of kimonos on. I could only thank Kami that he had left an informal kimono, so instead of battling with seven layers I'd only be fussing with four layers.

The door to onsen opened and I turned around slowly. I was only clothed in the first layer which was very sheer and left nothing to the imagination. It was kind of stupid to hope against hope that it was a female servant, for when I turned it was none other than Sesshoumaru. I bowed, not to show respect but to hide my body. "My most humble apology Sesshoumaru-Sama for my tardiness. The design of the kimono is a little more elaborate than what I am used to" and so I waited in a bowed position for him to speak. He never did say a word; he simply pulled me up to stand and helped me finish dressing. His touch was never lecherous or disrespectful. I though I was home free.

When he was finished I opened my mouth to thank him. Sesshoumaru placed a finger on my mouth, and then I noticed his eyes were rimed in red. Not sure what the red eyes meant, but knew the finger on the mouth meant quiet. He circled around me sniffing my hair and neck. Now I was nervous for a whole new reason. Every brush of his body against mine caused his youkai to caress my aura; I could also feel my aura caressing his. Slutty aura! If it had been anybody else other than Sesshoumaru I would have accused them of flirting. Sesshoumaru didn't like ningens and two; I had never in the five years I've been going back to this period seen the male flirt. But even if my deluded mine it was hard to ignore the nuzzling and then the licking. "Um Sesshoumaru-Sama are you feeling alright?" here was the part where he told me to mind my own business.

Instead he began to smile. Now I subscribe to the Jaken school of thought. If you saw the Lord of the West smile it was going to be the last thing you saw in this life. I started edging towards the door. If I could just get out of the onsen, my escape plan might go smoother. "Kagome, you don't have to add the Sama to my name. You may call me Sesshoumaru or anything else besides Fluffy. Come I took the liberty of having food sent to your room so that we may eat." He placed a hand on the small of my back to lead me back to the room. I was so confused at this point. But hey the demon was not trying to kill me so all was right in my world. When we arrived I almost fell over at the sight of a small table and silk pillows arranged for an intimate dinner.

I sat gingerly on the pillows and surveyed the food. Sushi, oden, shumai, and sake were on the table. I waited until Sesshoumaru took a sip of his sake to signal that I could eat. We ate almost in silence, only interrupted by polite request to pass a plate of food or sake. When we finished he helped me up and announced we would talk in the gardens. I'll admit the sake went a long way to help me fill mellow. Arriving at the gardens I was breathless. For Kami's sake there was every flower known to man and more. Beautiful, lush and fragrant his garden was without comparison. We sat on a marble bench bellow a Sakura tree and next to a pond.

I waited quietly, yes I know chatterbox that I am for once I was speechless. I figured that when he was good and ready to tell me what the hell was going on he would. He grabbed my hand and began to speak. "Kagome, this Sesshoumaru would like to tell you something. Since I saw you pull the fang from my father's tomb I was fascinated by you. I knew you were a miko but did not know the raw untapped power you possess. When I observed your devotion and loyalty to the hanyou despite his behavior you gained my respect. Your determination to protect your friends amazed me. The purity and strength of your heart broke through the ice surrounding my heart. But still I resisted thinking that you would never notice me. Recently when you healed my arm your powers marked my youkai. My beast and I both agree that you're the one for us, no other mate will do. You healed my arm Kagome, now finish healing my heart."

I was stunned. That the Great Lord Sesshoumaru admitting to a human that he wanted and needed her; that was indeed a miracle. There was an intrigue and immediate want. A male who wanted me for me and for no other reason, well thank the Kami's. I looked into his eyes, for they say the eyes cannot lie to the heart. The warmth and emotion that I saw touched me deep inside. I immediately felt sad, and looked down. He was a Taiyoukai and would live indefinitely I would die in such a short time that it would seem like a blink of his eye. I felt a hand gently lift my face up. "What's wrong koishii, why are you sad?" I unburdened myself to him. I expected him to comfort me, not laugh at me!

"Miko, I would not look for all these long years for the perfect mate to lose her to death. When we mate your life span will match mine. And this Sesshoumaru does not intend to die anytime soon. So I ask you will you become my mate." Okay Higurashi time to come clean about the whole time travel thing. So averting my gaze and in a rush of truth I told him the whole story. The future, the well, Mistress Centipede, freeing InuYasha and the subjugation beads were all explained. Hence imagine my surprise when he admitted to knowing this already. Seems like Maru-Chan took the keep your friends close, but keep your enemies closer thing to heart. He made it routine to know everything about allies and enemies.

Well that was the last of my reasons to say no, so I happily agreed. Only to squeal when he picked me up and ran to his room. It appears that he meant right now. He tossed me to the bed where I bounced a couple of time. Before I could look around the room he was undressed. Long silver hair that swept his calves, perfectly proportioned shoulders and abs to die for were the first things I noticed. Then it was on to his washboard stomach and the stripes that graced his hips. His manhood dangled from a nest of white silver hair. Even not fully aroused it was impressive and scary. Did he expect all that to fit in me? He kneeled beside the bed and gently undressed me. I will admit to being nervous and shy.

His hands traced paths down my body. Reactions that I could not control made me gasp, moan and sigh. The feeling of his lips and tongue on my nipples was indescribable. How could I depict the way his hair felt in my hands as I held his head? The finest silk would be put to shame. When he touched my clit, I came so hard. Such a glorious orgasm!

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