When you smile by Mikiri Tsuki

Dreams and Work

When You Smile.

By: Mikiri Tsuki

Chapter One: Dreams and Work

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I smile at your face, wishing that it didn't have to be this way. Wanting to stay and be with you forever but knowing, that it wasn't meant to be. Your golden eyes stare at me, pleading with me, though only I can see. Your blue silver locks sway in the morning breeze. I hear a small cry, and my heart cracks further. "Momma! Please Don't go! Kagome Oka-san! Please Stay with us!" I smiled sadly at the two voices, my two children.

I glaze that the human, and kitsune child. My baby, Shippo, with sad green eyes and bright orange hair his grown a bit, almost up to his sister's shoulder.

Rin, I turn my eyes to my daughter, her long dark brown black hair pulled into a side ponytail with hair falling down her back. Her once tooth gaped grin was full of teeth but in a pouting frown. Tears poured down both of their faces, as I knelt down and spread out my arms.

They ran one to each side. I pull them close into my embrace. Wanting to just stay with them and not leave. Sighing I pulled away after kissing each of their cheeks. Both scamped back to your side. I looked at you, and smiled you gave none in return. I raised my hand and let it drop, turning my head down.

I feel your cool clawed hand curl around my chin to pull my face to look at you. I do so and I almost shatter, the pain the sadness, all emotions only I and our children are allowed to see.

You press your soft velvet lips to mine before whispering. "Be safe, until we are reunited once more, my love, my Kagome" then suddenly I'm falling, I let out a scream as the blue lights engulf me. "Sesshomaru!" Then my world goes back.

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A young woman sits up suddenly, sweat pouring down her face as she pants from her sudden dream. 'More like flash back' she thought darkly. She sighed and glanced around her dark room, looking at her clock she sighed,' 4:12 in the freaking morning.' She sighed and tossed back the tangled sheets, easing her legs from the bed she stepped onto the cold hard wood floor.

Shivering slightly she waited for her feet to adjust or numb, whatever came first. Raising her sleeping limbs she stretched, much like a cat, above her head, arching her back and yawning, satisfied with the popping of her bones she got out of the bed, she wrinkled clothes falling into place. She walked silently over to her bathroom flipping on the lights she closed her eyes, waiting until her pupils stopped screaming. Moaning she opened her eyes too only glaze at the horrible state her hair was in.

Mumbling cursing that would have made Inu-Yasha blush she set to work on gathering the things she would need for a shower. She pulled back her sky blue curtains and turned on the water, turning the handles until she got it at the temperature she wanted she fixed the curtains, so that no water escaped, then stripped of her small white tank and matching yellow shorts.

Getting in she let the hot steaming water beat down on her skin, smiling gently. She wet her hair, before grabbing her vanilla scented shampoo. Squeezing out some of the yellow liquid into her hand, she rubbed it and moved to scrub her scalp. Smiling she hummed slightly.

Before sighing and rinsing the soap from her hair. Ringing out her raven tress slightly before grabbed her, also vanilla scent, conditioner. She ran it through her hair, smiling at th memory of longer, more deadly fingers combing through her hair. Whimpering she pushed the memory back; rinsing most of the conditioner out before getting she body wash and scrubbing herself. Why had she had that dream tonight? She hadn't had it in two years, why tonight?

Sighing she turned off the water she pulled the curtain back, stepping out onto the mat she grabbed her white towel and dried herself off, before pulling on her black thong and black slacks, wrapping her hair in a towel she pulled on her black bra and blue button down shirt. It was short sleeves, un wrapping her hair she dried it before blow drying it and brushing it out. Pulling it back in a bun she let a few pieces fall out to give her a natural look.

She began humming as she picked up the towel and set them on the rack to dry. Walking out of her bathroom she walked into her bedroom and flipped on the lights. Her walls were painted deep brown with green vines. And red and silver moons. She smiled at it, before Walking over to her cherry wood dresser. She glanced at the face down picture frame and sighed, picking it up a single tear rolled down her face. It was a picture of everyone, excluding Naraku of course.

It was in front of Goshinboku, in the past. She had finally gotten everyone to agree; with much bribery on Inu-Yasha's, Myoga's, Jaken's and Sesshomaru's parts. Shaking her head she looked at it. Sesshomaru stood in the back with his hand on his swords, and his other hand, which she had replaced; by his left side was Au-uh, his two headed dragon, Jaken sitting on him with his staff.

On his right was Inu-Yasha, glaring with his mate surprisingly, Kagura at his side. In front of her was Kanna, her mirror facing backwards. In front of Inu-Yasha was Sango, with her famed weapon and Kirara in her lap, Next to her was Miroku, kneeling slightly with his staff. Then in front of Sesshomaru was, herself, with Shippo on her shoulder and Rin in her arms. Kaede had taken the picture.

Kagome let another tear fall as she set the picture down. Turning she wiped her face. Before looking through her make-up. Grabbing some eyes liner she applied it and some light eye shadow along with some lipstick. Nodding at her appearance she walked over to her other dresser grabbing her necklace tree she shifted through them, she decided on the sliver chain necklace. It was a simple yet elegant piece that Shippo, and Rin had given her. IT rest right on her collar bone with a small navy blue crescent moon and a light blue arrow through it. She smiled, and looked at her eyes, the once chocolate blue eyes had become, liquid aqua.

Shaking her head slightly she grabbed her sandals and jacket before heading out of the bedroom and toward the kitchen in the apartment. Setting the shoes by the door she placed her jacket on the edge of the couch before moving into the kitchen for something to eat. She had bought this apartment with money she had been saving ever since she started her trips back in time.

Five years of saving up money had gotten her an nice sized apartment outside out Tokyo.. She refused to stay at the shrine, the feelings and memories were to harsh. She had waited a year, a whole year! But her mate, and children had never shown up. She had become so depressed theat her mother told her, more like forced her, to leave.

Sighing she fixed herself a cup of coffee before sitting down at the table. She didn't need to be anywhere until 6. And it was, she looked up at the clock on the wall, 5:05. She slumped slightly. Sipping her coffee she thought back to her dream. That had been the last time she had seen, her mate and children, had they moved on? Had something happened to them? Had they forgotten? She shook her head, If sesshomaru had mated with some one she would have known his mark would have faded, if he had died she would be dead as well. Gingerly she touched the mark on her neck, smiling at the memory.

She had stayed in the fuadal ear, or rather traveled back and forth for over five years, during that time she had falling in and out of love with her hanyou friend and back in love with his half brother, who, surpsingly, returned the love. Though only she knew it.

After she had mated Sesshomaru, which was three years into her traveling, they had defeated Naraku, Kikyo was killed by none other than Inu-Yasha, that one had left everyone dumb founded. After the battle Kagome had healed everyone, Sesshomaru offered to revive Kohaku but Sango denied it, saying that he would finally be in peace. A year later Inu-Yasha announced his mating with the wind demoness Kagura, Kagome had been the first to congratulate them.

Glad that her friends were happy, a month after that Miroku and Sango had their wedding. During the next year she, herself had begun to become weaker some days not even being able to get out of bed. Sesshomaru had stayed by her side, only to leave when war broke out among the lands.

Kaede had suggested the Kagome go home to her time, since no healer could figure out what was wrong with her. At first Sesshomaru had protested the idea, but the day she was attacked and un able to defend herself, Sesshomaru swayed. That was why, she was here now, without her mate or children. Two months after she had gotten home she had a miscarriage.

Kagome sighed and stood, Walking over to her sink she pushed back the thoughts and washed out the cup. Without glancing at her clock she walked into the living room an pulled on her jacket, grabbing her keys and purse she pulled don her sandals and walked out, locking the door behind her.

Glancing at the watch on her wrist, she shook her head. "No matter what I'll always be early" she muttered. Walking past all the other Suite numbers; smiling slightly when she met up with Fusen. The woman was two or three inches shorter than herself, with long straight brown hair, and deep violent eyes. She seemed, from her looks, like Sango, but she inherited, much to Kagome's dismay, Miroku's pervertedess.

The other woman had on a long black skirt with a light purple top and black with purple designs jacket. Her hair was pulled back in a loose ponytail. She smiled at Kagome. "Hey 'Gome!" she greeted cheerfully.

Kagome moaned.'She and Sango always so cheerful in the morning!' "Hello Fusen" Kagome greeted softly, Fusen frowned. "Kagome-chan did you have a rough night?" she asked looking at the older woman as they started toward the elevator. "No, just a bad life" Kagome muttered, darkly.

Fusen frowned. "Kagome-chan!!!" she whined "You need a man!" she said, Kagome halted and looked at her, let's see, innocent expression? Check, Sparking eyes? Check. Yup there's the girl version of Miroku.

Kagome sighed. "Fusen-" "I know I know 'We have gone through this and I don't want or have time for a man!" the girl mimicked. Kagome laughed. "Okay maybe I have said that to much, but honestly I don't!"Fusen rolled her eyes and waved the elder girl off pushed the white button 'floor" she heard a ding and walked in the small space with Kagome, the older woman sighed it smelled like smoke in here. As the hit the bottom floor the two separated Fusen waved good bye as did Kagome. Walking out she looked for her deep green Mercedes.

Smiling she hit the unlock button on the small key chain. Hearing the satisfying sound of the horning going off, she walked to the car and opened the driver's door, slipping into the cool leather seat she placed the key into the ignition, closing the door and buckling up she turned on the Cd player, skipping through a few songs she stopped on "No One's There" by Korn.

"Are you ready?!

There's a place inside my mind, a place I like to hide

You don't know the chances. What if I should die?!"

Kagome sang along heading on her way to work. Thinking about her past and her past promises those she had given and those, given to her. They didn't know the chances, what if she had died? Would this misery had ended?

"A place inside my brain, another kind of pain

You don't know the chances. I'm so blind!"

Hiding inside herself, as her "friends" said, hurt her more than helped, but did it really? They didn't know! They didn't know that she had been blind! Blinded by the foolishness of lost loves and gained victories.

"Another place I find to escape the pain inside

You don't know the chances. What if I should die?!"

She had found other ways to escape her horrid reality, this horrible pain that consumed her, the pain of being betrayed or being abandoned.

"A place inside my brain, another kind of pain

You don't know the chances. I'm so blind!"

She had been so blind! How could she have been so stupid to think she would have lived happily ever after with Sesshomaru, Rin and Shippo and any pups they would have had. Inu-yasha was right she was brainless. And to trusting.

"To Burn, To Burn, To burn 'cause I'm trying to

Live a life that seems to be a lost reality

I can never find no way to reach my inner self. I'm staying low."

She burning away her possible happiness wanting something that would never been, Impatiently she blew the horn at the idiots that needed to have their driver's licences evoked. Her life had lost the reality of time and feelings she just moved on day to day, hour to hour.

"How deep can I go in the ground that I lay?

If I don't find a way to seek through the gray that clouds my mind.

This time I look to see what's between the lines."

How far had she fallen? How far did she have left to go? Would the gray clouds of misery and depression ever leave her mind? Or would she die unhappy?

"I can see, I can see, I'm going blind...

I'm blind!"

She could see it clearly now. She had been a stupid and naive girl, living in a fantasy and this. This had been her wake up call. She knew now, she could see clearly, she had been blind.

Kagome pulled into the parking lot of the large corporation. She glanced down at her watch. She was ten minutes early. Good enough. She grabbed her briefcase from the back and turned off her car. Pocketing her keys she got out and smiled as the car automatically locked.

As she let the song lyrics replay in her head she walked across the parking lot. She was the Assistant CEO of Shikon Enterprise,; she had originally applied for the job to make sure the President wasn't a youkai trying to un cover any secrets about the Shikon no Tama. But had soon found that they didn't, Though everyone in a while she felt flickers of Youkai, it had never been strong enough for her to pinpoint it. As it was, she had a sneaking suspicious the President and Owner of the Company was a Strong youkai, for she had never met him.

Kagome sighed and looked at the security camera dead in the face a moment later a computerized voice said. "Good Morning Higurashi, Kagome, you are nine minutes early today," Kagome rolled her eyes, 'whatever. Just open the damned door!' she thought. She distantly heard a small cling and the door opened she walked in, un fazed as the door shut with a 'snap' behind her.

She looked around the vast, lobby. She shook her head and tightened her grip on her briefcase, she past by the secretary at the front desk with a huff. Here at work, she was Known as the Cold Bitch, which fit her just fine, because technoloy she was a bitch, a female dog mind you.

Kagome headed up the stairs, around the corner and to the elevators. She hit the button for the ninth floor and waited, a minute later she was standing in a crowded elevator, She waited patiently for the number '9' to light up. Once it did she wove out of the back and into the hall. Straightening her hair out she walked over to her door. It read.

"Assistant CEO.

Higurashi, Kagome. "

The girl snorted and pulled out her keys unlocking it once more she walked inside. Not surprise to see papers stacked neatly by her laptop. What did surprise her however was there was a notice taped to the top of her laptop. She scowled and walked to it. Snatching it off, she quickly read it.

"Dear Higurashi-san,

There will be a meeting at the end of the Week, Friday, August 27th, both you, the head CEO, and The President will be there, to discuss the latest failure of one Mister Cooma Hurai. "

Kagome rolled her eyes, she had been telling the Head CEO for months now that they needed to fire that Ass Hurai, but no one had listened at it had cost the corporation millions! And NOW they wanted to discuss it? Tch, whatever, as long as at the end of the day she still had a job she didn't care.

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