why must i by chi

honestly i forgot so chap 3

What is time but a reality of escape. What is your mind but the way to a become one is it in the light that you see? Is it in your mind that you know are you simply implying that I'am no one that I'am a shadow of a god, are you saying that I'am the one who is to become? Is it that you are saying that it is my fault that I must suffer through this hell i have been placed in? This despair that you are a cause of? Then again are you saying that it is only you who will win in the end?

Why are you one my mind instead of him the one I loved the one I still love that one I always will love? Why do you look like him why must I see you in him instead of him in you? Why why must it be you who haunt my dreams so that even in my sense of reality escape I can not for I know that you are there at every turn. I see you fight with the graces of gods i see you run with the grace of water and speed of the wind I cannot se you attack i can only see you win in the end in a battle that was not of your doing but of a fools game. What is it that draws me to you I'am only as one is it danger no it cannot be that is it your grace no not that is it your love.......

It must be I need love I only can get it from the ones who love me back the one i held so deep within my heart rejected my being for another. I was merly a duplicate I hold no grudge for I'am of pure mind soul and body is that it? I want a release from the purity do I want clarity? Yes that is what I want I want to understand even if it takes me until i wither away... I will find love and when I do it will be you who will face the wraith you the one who betrayed my heart no longer will dwell in the shadow of another no longer will I be unseen no longer it is time I'am known.

"what was that"