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Waga Nakiwameku Kokoro

My Crying Heart

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Disclaimer: I do not own Inu Yasha. Any Inu Yasha related topics are solefully and respectivley owned by Rumiko Takahashi and her producers.

Claimer: I do own the opening poem and this very fanfic. Plagurism is not acceptable and those who copy this fanfic and use it as their own will be punished.

Spoilers: No

Dedication: To Jen and her Fans. RIP BlueAngel_InuMiko's (Jacqueline, Jen)

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Selena's Corner:

Hey guys! I thought this would be such a cute fic....a one shot! I hope you guys enjoy! This is my first attempt at a one shot...especailly an angsty one! So be gentle on me! Like dry cleaning! ^_^!

Please Rate and Review! Flames are welcome. But any good comments are highly appreciated! ^_^!

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I love you,

With all my heart and soul,

Yet you ignore me,

And what I am told,

That you do not return my feelings,

So I beg you now,

For my own happiness,

Can you not love me,

When I love you more,

Than the Earth, sky or stars,

My love knows no bounds,

For it is like the sky,

Never ending.

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She loved him. So much. Kagome watched sadly as Sesshomaru walked away from her. Again. Why couldn't he see it? How her very breath, heart and soul revolved around him. Closing her sapphire eyes, the miko smiled sadly.

"I must leave you, miko." The TaiYoukai stated emotionessly as he strapped Tokijin on his side.

Kagome looked away from the youkai. She could not show the hurt he caused her when he used other names to address her. She knew it was his way of erecting a barrier. A barrier that kept her out of his life, his heart and his mind.

"I understand." She whispered. Closing her eyes, she held her tears.

Sesshomaru nodded stiffly. "Naraku is here. Inu Yasha and myself need to see to his demise." He announced cooly, the golden eyes she loved so much were now hard and so alike to chipped like ice.

Looking up into his angelic face, Kagome searched his eyes. "Sesshomaru..I...lo-"

"Ja ne, Kagome." He interrupted frostily, showing his intolerance of any -ningen- emotion which he called it, to be shown.

Kagome watched trhough blinding tears as the TaiYoukai turned on his heel and walked away, his white figure dissapearing into Inu Yasha's forest.

Her hand rubbing her lower belly, Kagome looked down at her slightly swollen abdomen through her tear flooding vision. 'Your Otou just doesn't understand koi.' The girl thought as her tears fell down her cheek onto the ground only to be soaked up by the soil.

Raising her head, Kagome watched as Inu Yasha stood underneath a tree, waiting for his aniiki. The hanyou shot Kagome an apologetic look as he picked up Kikyo who gave Kagome a slight nod. The three of them, the two Inu brother's and miko were then in the air, heading towards Naraku.

Seeing Kirara lift herself in the air with Miroku and Sango on her back, Kagome watched as her friends and love left her.

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Sesshomaru leapt in the air, straining against his impulse to not look back at Kagome. His jaw clenching and his golden eyes slanted angrily, the youkai growled. Kagome. The one person that had the ability to break through his barriers and reach to emotions he thought and wished, he didn't have. He had mated her for her power. Her power and status. But now, the wench had wormed herself into his affections. He found himself wondering how she could be so perfect. His perfection.

He found himself resisting the urge to tear her friends from her as they hugged her. Or the urge to bring her into his arms and just sit there, protecting and loving her. He found himself sneaking into her room at their palace and just watching her sleep, her angelic appearance stunning him. His eyes had a mind of their own as he found his heart quicken when he found her doing the trivial chores of the day she busied herself with.

When she looked at him with those ocean blue eyes, he found his blood pumped faster than any youkai and his mind go blank. And when she smiled, his heart softened to that of churned butter. Such emotions were useless and uncalled for. He was a TaiYoukai. Not a simpering ningen. His eyes narrowing, he growled. She was his mate. A ningen miko with exceptional powers. Nothing more to him. And would never be more than that. Seeing Naraku in the distance of the field with his thousands of youkai army, the TaiYoukai smirked cruelly.

This hanyou would no longer try to harm his possesion. No more.

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Kagome walked to the Goshinbuko, her eyes looking at the ground sadly. Leaning her head against the rough bark, she sighed. This is where she had found him. Her eyes watering, Kagome smiled with irony. He had been sitting here during a rainstorm and she had just come back from the future. Here is where everything began. Her hand tracing the spot where he had leaned against the tree, Kagome found herself embracing the tree.

"Kagome.." A soft voice whispered.

Blinking, Kagome turned and looked around frantically. Who was calling her?

"Kagome..." A voice breathed gently.

Turning slowly behind her, Kagome gasped. A woman. A miko to be exact by her appearance. The woman smiled softly. "Kagome...do you love him?" She whispered, her blue eyes so alike to her own.

Her brow furrowing, the girl frowned. "Whom? Sesshomaru?" She asked uncertainly.

The woman nodded. "Hai. Sesshomaru."

Kagome smiled sadly as she sat on the ground. "Hai. More than anything in this world and the next. But..." Her eyes letting loose of her tears, Kagome bit her bottom lip to surpress her sobs.

The woman stood rigidly, her reed straight body tall and elegant. "I am Midoriko. I have come to help you make a decision, Higurashi Kagome."

Looking up, Kagome blinked in confusion. "A decision?" She echoed in wonder.

Midoriko nodded. "Naraku will win this battle, Kagome. He will kill all those you love dear. Miroku, the monk, shall unfortuantly lose control fo his Kazaana, bringing Sango into his palm and killing her. He will then kill himself to join her."

Kagome felt her lips part in shock.

"Kikyo is still alive, ne?" The etheral samurai asked softly.

Kagome nodded hesitaintly. "Inu Yasha will be fatally injured and Kikyo will die trying to save him from Naraku. In her last breaths, Kikyo will admit her love to Inu Yasha. And Inu Yasha will die seeing Kikyo die a second time."

Kagome felt her heart clench at the bitter death for the miko and her friend. The miko felt her heart tear in two as she awaited the next. "And...Sesshomaru..?" She whispered, her heart quivering.

Midoriko smiled sadly. "Your love will die trying to rid of Naraku for you."

Her heart stopping, Kagome felt herself at a loss for words.

Midorko stepped towards her, her red hakamma pants softly trailing in the breeze. "Today, you will choose Kagome. Your love or your life." The miko said sadly, her soft blue eyes looking at the younger girl sympathitcally.

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Miroku screamed. His Kazanna! It was...to strong... His violet eyes widening, he screamed as he saw the shocked looking Sango being pulled towards his void in his palm.

"Sango! Run!" He yelled as he saw her fighting against it.

Naraku smiled darkly as he continued controlling the houshi's hand. How unbelievably delightful it was to cause heart ache and pain upon these annoying people. Sango screamed as her feet gaveway. Her hands flailing helplessly, the Taijya screamed as she found herself being pulled to the swirling void.

"Miroku!" She screamed in horror.

Miroku watched in wide eyed shock as his love came closer and closer to her demise. Miroku felt his tears falling as she was now just a few feet away from his wind tunnel.

"Sango!" He screamed as he frantically tried to pull his stiff, unmovable hand away from Sango's uneventable path.

A white lily hand came out of no-where and firmly grasped Miroku's hand. Turning his head, he gaped in shock. Kagome?

Smiling at the confused houshi, Kagome closed her eyes and let her purifying energy out. Miroku gaped in surprise as his arm became limp and his cloth and sacred beads were pulled on over his palm, sealing the Kazanna. Naraku hissed in pain as his hand was burnt into a bubbling mass of flesh. His dark eyes widening then slanting dangerously, he snarled. That girl...she was here.

Sango shakingly got up from the ground, her body shaking. "Ka-Kagome-chan...what are you...Sesshomaru.." She stuttered.

Kagome raised up a hand, her eyes soft. "Iie, Sango-chan. I must do this." She whispered.

Turning to her confused friends, Kagome gave a half smile. "Hurry Miroku. Sometimes not letting the ones you love not know about your feelings can be a grave mistake." The miko stated wisely, stunning the houshi at her knowledge of his feelings.

Leaving her wide eyed shocked friends behind, Kagome continued walking through the battlefield. Inu Yasha screamed as he jumped into the air, his Tessaiga coming towards another youkai.

"Die!" He screamed.

Kikyo hung in the back, her deft fingers letting loose powerful arrows, protecting the attacking Inu Yasha from youkai. The youkai disintergrated before her as she continued to watch the hanyou's back cautiously. Stopping her arrow's, the miko looked around to assure Inu Yasha's safety. Something then caught her deft eyes. Kikyo's eyes widened in horror as she saw a youkai coming towards Inu Yasha's back.

"Inu Yasha!" Kikyo screamed as she now ran to him, her bamboo sandals tripping on her long red hakamma pants. Screaming, Kikyo fell to ground, her feet trapped in her long, billowy pants. Raising her head up, Kikyo felt her tears come forth as she saw the youkai raise it's sword in the air, Inu Yasha not noticing it.

'Inu Yasha...' She thought as the tears streamed down her soft, lily white cheeks slowly as she lost the ability to talk.

An arrow then whizzed through the air, sinking into the youkai's back. Inu Yasha turned and froze as the youkai and his sword that was poised over him dissapeared. His golden eyes wide, Inu Yasha turned around and froze when he saw Kagome's bow string still humming.

Kikyo got up, her eyes wide. Kagome..? Her reincarnation had..?

Kagome nodded to them both, continuing on. Puzzled, the two watched as Kagome walked through the battle field, miko energy flowing around her, keeping any attacking youaki at bay.

Sesshomaru snarled as he fought Naraku. "You will die today, hanyou." He proclaimed stoicly.

Naraku chuckled as he blocked another attack with his own katanna. "We will see, Sesshomaru-sama." He drawled darkly, his red eyes gleaming with malice.

Kagome looked up and froze. A tentacle..it was sneaking behind Sesshomaru and poised for an attack! Dropping her bow and arrows, Kagome found her feet pounding on the ground as she ran with all her possible speed and strength.

"Sesshomaru!" She screamed as she flung herself ontop of the surprised youkai.

'Kagome?' He thought in surprise.

Embracing the TaiYoukai's back, Kagome stiffened as the attacking appendage slid through her body and grasped her heart. Her mouth falling open in surprise, Kagome looked down to see Naraku's tentacle protruding from her chest. The blood seeped through the sapphire blue kimino Sesshomaru had given her last night, the white crescant moon with the large white dog was now a blood red.

Sesshomaru turned and grasped Kagome in his arms. Looking down his golden eyes widened to show his shock. His usually blank face now revealed his anger and confusion. "Kagome..." He murmured in his deep voice.

Kagome felt her tears come forth as she felt herself being embraced in those arms she loved so much. "Y-You said my name.." She whispered as she closed her eyes and smiled.

Snarling, Sesshomaru looked down at his mate. "What are you doing here! Didn't this Sesshomaru tell you to stay in the Western Lands?" He hissed angrily, his worry pushing his emotions in a turmoil. So much blood, her blood...

Kagome looked up into his eyes. "S-Sesshomaru...I co-couldn't...I love y-"

"Quiet Kagome. We will heal you then see to your punishment later." The youkai interrupted coldly, his golden eyes hard with anger.

Kagome found her heart fall to her gut. 'In life and death, you will never know peace until you know he understands..' Midoriko's voice echoed in her head.

Naraku sneered. "You need your mate to protect you, Sesshomaru?" The hanyou asked jeeringly.

Sesshomaru's body stiffened noticably. Quickly cutting off the tentacle, Sesshomaru looked at Kagome's injury. It was fatal. But he had Tensaiga. Kagome noticed his thoughts.

'A life for a life..' The woman's voice whispered.

Sobbing, Kagome pushed a confused Sesshomaru away from her. "I-Iie...Sesshomaru..." She gasped, her blood painting the ground underneath her feet.

His eyes narrowing angrily, Sesshomaru felt himself becoming enraged. Did the miko -want- to die? Coming towards her, he snarled as a pink barrier erected itself around him.

"Kagome!" He snarled as his eyes reddened with anger. Inu Yasha watched in confusion. What was wrong with Kagome? Kikyo frowned. What was Kagome up too? Naraku turned to see the panting miko who glared at him furiously.

"So this is how it is, little miko?" He murmured as he glided towards her.

Sesshomaru watched in fury as the despicable hanyou was a mere foot from his Kagome. Unsheathing Tokijin, he smashed the blade against the strong barrier.

'Kagome...Your time is done..' Midorko whispered in her mind.

Turning to the snarling Sesshomaru, she let her tears fall. "Sesshomaru..I-I've wanted to say this for so long.." She whispered as she let her tears fall.

Sesshomaru froze, his heart speeding up for some unknown reason as he looked into her beautiful, sparkling eyes.

"Ai shiteru, Sesshomaru-koi." Kagome whispered, smiling happily.

Sesshomaru felt his throat close and breathing become painful. 'Kagome..' His mind echoed as he stared into those beautiful blue eyes of her's. A weird warmth started to fill the youkai Lord's frozen heart, shocking him. Then surprising everyone, Kagome pulled Naraku towards herself and hugged him. Naraku stiffened in shock. What was the miko doing?

**Song to play at this part: No More Words (By Inu Yasha)*

Closing her eyes tightly, a pink energy slowly shot out of her. Naraku hissed in fright. The miko.. she was going to destroy them both! Looking at the shocked, wide eyed TaiYoukai, Kagome gave a soft smile.

"Ja ne, Sesshomaru-koi." She breathed before she let every ounce of love, happiness, hope and her dreams into her explosion of power.

A pink ball of energy exploded from the girl, enveloping the field.

"Kagome!" Sesshomaru screamed, his claw pressing against the barrier as he stared on as his mate dissapeared before his disbelieving eyes.

Seeing the ball of energy, Inu Yasha hugged Kikyo to his body, closing his eyes tightly. Looking up at Inu Yasha, Kikyo pressed her palm against his cheek as the power came towards them fast. Noticing there was no time to run, the miko smiled sadly.

"Forgive me, Inu Yasha for all I've done..Ai shiteru.." She whispered.

The hanyou's eyes widened in shock then softened. "Ai shiteru, Kikyo." He whispered as the pink energy consumed them as they hugged tightly.

Turning, another couple gaped at the energy. Running to Miroku, Sango flung herself on him, her arms grasping him to her body fast. His eyes widening in shock then softening in love, Miroku held her tightly against his shaking form.

"Sango..Gomen ne..Ai shiteru.." The monk whispered in her ear. Her chocolate eyes widening, Sango sobbed.

"Houshi-sama...Ai shiteru.." The Taijya murmured softly as she closed her lips over his trembling ones.

Sesshomaru froze as the light hit the barrier and passed over him. He loved her. How could he have been so blind? Her ocean eyes flashed in his mind, causing him to clench his one claw tightly, drawing forth blood. His white bangs covering his eyes, Sesshomaru found himself looking through red tinted eyes at the ground.

The energy slid over the land, touching everything and everyone. A warmth spread through every living person and a peaceful serenity filled the area.

The light then slowly dissapeared, the sun coming forth from behind the black ominous clouds. Opening their eyes, Inu Yasha gasped. Slowly opening her own, Kikyo found herself silent. It was beautiful.. A field of flowers and grass now covered the battlefield. Inu Yasha pulled Kikyo into his body, his eyes widening. She was warm.

"Kikyo.." He gasped in awe.

Kikyo nodded, the tears falling from her eyes. "Inu Yasha..I'm back..and I.."

Inu Yasha stopped her speach by slowly placing his lips on hers.

A warmth building in her chest for the first time in fifty years, Kikyo leaned into the kiss. 'Arigatou..Kagome.' She thought as her tears fell from her happiness.

The dead bodies of youkai and allies were gone. In their place, little blue flowers graced tiny green stems. Miroku blinked as Sango continued her death grip on him.

"S-Sango...look.." The monk stammered.

Opening her eyes, Sango felt her heart stop. Miroku's palm lay smooth and uncovered. No more Kazanna. Her chocolate eyes filling with tears as no white and green figure came to view, the Taijya sobbed.

"Sango.....She is not entirely gone." Miroku stated softly.

Bringing Sango's tear sodden face up, he made her look at the transformation Kagome had made. Beautiful. Like Kagome. Her eyes watering, the tears slid down her face.

"She gave her life for us..." Sang whispered.

Miroku nodded as his violet eyes shone with sadness. "She wanted this." He said knowingly, his eyes raised to the blue sky.

Opening his eyes, Sesshomaru looked around for Kagome. He found his heart clenching as the one person he loved had seemed to have dissapeared from the face of the Earth.

"Kagome.." He murmured in his rich voice.

Closing his eyes, he opened them again and froze. A flash of blue and white caught his wandering gaze. Walking towards the spot, Sesshomaru looked to see a blue kimino with a white dog and crescant moon lying on the ground with no owner. How had it survived..?

'Kagome..' His heart surprising bleed from the inside with a wound unbelievable. Closing his eyes to hide his sadness and feelings from the people who had survived, the TaiYoukai turned on his heel to leave this place quickly. He couldn't stand it. This place was all Kagome. Continuing to walk, Sesshomaru froze when a little whimper was heard behind him. Turning and slowly walking back to the kimino in confusion, the TaiYoukai walked towards the bundle. His eyes narrowing, he pulled the kimino gently apart with his one claw. A pair of ocean blue eyes looked up into his own orbs.

White hair spread around the infant who now suckled it's fist. Pointed ears as his own, creamy albaster skin and a crescant moon adorned it's forhead. Those eyes hauntingly stared into his own, sparkling like two jewels. So much like Kagome's. Looking down at the pup, Sesshomaru enhaled the scent around him. Jasmine. Her scent. A breeze then picked up and gently traced his cheek softly. Blinking, Sesshomaru felt the caress on his cheek.

"Sesshomaru.." The breeze whispered lovingly.

Looking around, his eyes softened. She was here. Bending down, the TaiYoukai gently picked up the youkai pup and wrapped it in it's oka-saan's kimino. Closing his eyes, the youkai enhaled the jasmine scent that lingered on the clothing. She was here. And always would be. Staring up into the sky, the youkai turned and walked away from the scene.

"Ai shiteru, Kagome-koi." He whispered softly to the field.

"Ai shiteru, Sesshomaru." A voice whispered back as the wind picked up his hair, the silver tresses gently blowing in the wind.

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Translations:

TaiYoukai: Demon Lord

Miko: Priestess

Youkai: Demon

Iie: No

Hanyou: Half-breed

Ningen: Human

Houshi: Monk

Taijya: Demon extemrinator

Gomen ne: I am sorry

Ai shiteru: I love you

Koi: Love

Ja ne: See ya