You're So Much Better Than You Know by *~*Stylized_Silver_Miko*~*

You're So Much Better Than You Know

~You think I'd leave your side baby...

You know me better than that...~

Kagome sat in one of the hot springs she treaded across in the Western Lands. She had a lot on her mind. Everything, the stuff with Kikyo and Inuyasha, the hurt, and betrayl....no...she could not call it betrayl. She knew from the start that she would never be his, especially after she found out about Kikyo. A small part of her did not want to believe that. She shook her head to clear thoughts of the two out of her mind. She knew better than that. She smiled. She had someone else to love, someone so totally unexpected that she laughed like a crazed woman after she realised it.

~You think I'd leave you down when you're down on your knees........

I wouldn't do that...~

Not even the weight of collecting the Shikon no Kakera, or the pain Naraku put her through could surpass the....the beauty, the passion that she shared whenever she was with him. Sure, It was never chocolates and roses, and sweet nothings in her ears, but he made her feel as if she mattered, as if she held a purpose in life other than Guardian of the Shikon.

He protected her, not just from the physical nothings of the outside, but the things deep inside that could damage a soul.

At first, he was just a curiosity. That should have been when she first noticed.

She could see through his facade. She saw his lonely eyes, his cold, empty lonely life. It broke her heart that not one of her friends could see the pain and suffering in his eyes.

His eyes gave him away, made up for all the expressions he did not show with his face.

~I'll tell you you're right when you want

and if only you could see into me

ha ah ah ah ah ah~

She confirmed it when she found him one day, beaten, bruised, and bloodied. At first, she wondered what in the world could have done this to him, he was one of the strongest demons she knew! She then saw it. The thing that confirmed her musings last time.

His eyes.

They looked to be tired. Lost of hope, or anything, for that matter, and what she saw last made her blood run cold.

Indifference.

He did not care he was like this. She could see if he was stubborn, or angry, but this broke her more than anything before. She remembered that day, that first day she officially fell in love with him...

*~*Flashback*~*

The trees rustled softly, warm air flying, as if sending a message. She walked towards the well, mad at Inuyasha for being such a idiot. That was when she smelled it.

Blood.

She ran ahead, to see a beautiful, yet devastating sight.

Sesshoumaru lay with his eyes half open, on the ground, bleeding profusely. She saw all the emotions in his eyes, and gasped. She knelt before the demon lord.

"Sesshoumaru...." his eyes twisted towards hers, that burning indifference hurting her. She closed her eyes, and began to cry. Sesshoumaru lifted his hand, and caught a tear with his claw.

"You cry for me, miko?" he asked softly. He was surprised when her hand went over his own, closing her eyes so the tears fell freely.

"Not only that, Sesshoumaru...I cry for your loneliness, and your pain." she began to glow pink, and the glow extended over to his body.

'Warm.....I feel at peace, my soul no longer rages...' was his first thought.

~Oh when you're cold

I'll be there,

to hold you tight to me....~

His injuries healed substancially, he felt as if he could take on anything. He sat up, and smiled a small smile. She blushed.

"My dear miko, I am in your debt. What would you want of me?" he asked quietly. After all this, he thought she was using him. She got angry.

"I'll have you know that I want nothing of you but your happiness! " she yelled. "The pain you show is unbearable, even to me!" she whispered, eyes closing, and more tears falling.

"You see my pain?" ' What a rare delight, to find that someone notices how I feel without me pulling a face. This miko, she is special, and wise.' he thought.

She looked down at her hands. "Yes. Please...call me Kagome. Higurashi-san will do if that is too inform-"

"Kagome..." her name rolled off his tongue like a sweet wine. She shivered. His voice made her name sound like a reverent prayer full of power.

'Damn, his voice is sexy....' she idly thought. She then blushed. He noticed.

"Why do you blush Kagome?" he laughed inside. It had been a long time since anything made him laugh out of pure humor.

"N-nothing, never you mind, Sesshoumaru."she smiled. The wind blew through her tresses, making her seem ethreal in the lazy summer afternoon.

'My dear Kagome, you know not what you do to me....' indeed, the demon began to have some sort of feelings he did not notice before. An elated, happy feeling, a feeling that as long as she was by his side, nothing could ever cross him.

~When you're on the outside baby,

And you can`t get in

I will show you you're so much better

than you know........

When you're lost and you're alone

And you cant get back again,

I will find you darling and I will bring you home~

Kagome saw the stump of his arm when the wind blew, for there was nothing to block the material from flowing freely. She crawled closer to him, her scent of summer rain and a sweet fruity, blossomy smell he could not put his finger on assaulted his nose.

"Sesshoumaru," she said almost scoldingly. She placed her hands on the stump, and closed her eyes.

'What in the world,' thought Sesshoumaru. He began to glow pink again, and his soul seemed relaxed, and steady.

When she opened her eyes, she smiled.

"That was for letting me see you smile." she wispered. His eyes widened. His arm was back in place, even stronger and better than before it got amputated. His eyes seemed to hold enlightenment and gratitude. His arm would have taken hundreds of years to grow back, and she gave it back to him in mere seconds. He no longer doubted the power of hers. None of the strongest healers, sages or anyone else could reverse what had happened. He held her close, suddenly.

"Kagome..."he purred. She gasped.

He was NOT going to let go of her, ever. That stupid hanyou had no idea what sort of woman lay before his eyes.

"It would have taken so long for it to reappear....I am forever in debt to you....." he held her face with both -both!!- of his hands. He knew it was real.

"Let me repay the favor in one of the many ways I know how...." he purred softly. She groaned. She could swear she could feel a sweet tingling between her thighs.

Sesshoumaru's lips swooped down upon hers, taking her bottom lip between his, and suckling softly, careful not to graze her with his fangs. She responded, and he growled, pulling her body to his, and kissing infinitely deeper. He broke the kiss to trail hot nips down her neck.

'So sweet...' his mind numbly recited.

Her body reacted like two unbalanced chemicals combining. Her vision got woozy, and she was sure if she were on her feet that she would have fallen by now. His lips were exquisite...and that tongue......

He licked her neck slowly, kissing behind her ear, causing shivers to run down her spine.

He withdrew, and she looked dazed. He nearly laughed.

*~* End Flashback*~*

~And if you want to cry

i am here to dry your eyes

and in no time

you'll be fine...~

She remembered all of it. They began to become fast friends. She smiled wryly. 'For like two seconds, we did.' she thought. She remembered all the places he took her, his lagoon, gardens and hot springs. He wooed her, yes, but not the corny way. The elegant way, the way that would truly leave one breathless. His kisses like fire, lips like velvet, the words coming out of his mouth much sweeter and softer than silk. She was not unfamiliar with his body, oh no. She made sure if he was to have his way with her, that she did the same. It was usually her end of the bargain......she remembered one particular day....the day she first explored him......

*~*Flashback*~*

"Sesshoumaru....."'she wispered. It was such a cool, crecent moon night. There were lots of stars, stars she could never see without a telescope at home.

"Beautiful...." murmered Sesshoumaru. She looked at him, to find him staring intently at her. He lifted her hand to his lips, kissing her hand as if it were the most delicate flower...all without taking his eyes off of her.

Kagome noticed this look. She knew she was falling in love with him, and she even told him so. He was flattered, and in his own ways told her the same.

"Kagome.....' he purred roughly. He brought her to sit on his lap. She could feel a slight pressure against her thigh.

"Yes, Sesshoumaru?"

"I know you fall in love with me. It would do well if you knew me better in mind, body and spirit. You know my mind, you know my spirit. All is left is my body, that you do not know. I wish for you to know my body." he rumbled in a low, silky voice.

'It's official,' she mused. 'I've gotten wet. Bad Kagome! Bad!' she mentally slapped her hand.

"But, I-"he stopped her with a elegant clawed finger.

"Hush..."he hissed softly. He opened his haori, and placed her hands on his chest.

"Just touch me....whenever, wherever, explore, know me...." he could not surpress the soft purr of pleasure when her hands moved the slightest.

Her hands roamed his chest, his abs, and stomach, marvelling at how strong his arms were. He smiled, untying his sash and removing his hakama. He was naked for all to see.

"Everywhere...." he moaned. She was scared, she'd never done it. Her hands soothed his narrow hips, and his thighs. He realised why her scent was so full of fear.

"My love, you do not have to touch me there if it frightens you so. Anywhere you touch me is pleasurable...." he inquired. She set steely reserve. He was not the type to be afraid to touch her anywhere, why should she be?

She knew. Because he had the body of a god, that's why....the tiny voice in her head told her that every time he was mentioned.

Her hand slowly slipped over his penis, grasping with a firm hold. She watched with a delightful feeling as his head sank back on his shoulders, his eyes closed and lips parted slightly. Her hand began to feel all over it, pumping softly. His hips kept up in time with her hand.

"Oh, Kagome...." he breathed. She smiled. She had him at her complete mercy. She sped up the pumping, and growls began to reverberate from his throat. He could not speak. She nearly cried at the power this touch had over the demon lord. She stopped, him groaning in protest.

"Tease..." his voice was thick with lust and passion. She then expirimented. She massaged his penis from root to tip, stopping occasionally to thumb over the tip. Sesshoumaru's face scrunched up in pleasure a little bit...she had trouble detecting that movement in his face. Before long, his hand stopped hers from what she was doing.

"Is there something wrong?" she asked meekly. Sesshoumaru nearly rolled his eyes at her naivete.

"If you had gone on any longer, my dear, two things would have happened. First, you'd have to wash your clothing, and second, I would not be able to control myself from taking you." a red blush came over her cheeks at the realisation that perhaps she had been WAY too good at what she did to him. He continued.

" I wish not to dishonor myself by doing something without your consent. Not all demons are one track minded or dull. I wish to have your permission before I ravish you....." he groaned. It literally looked like he was fighting to keep his hands to himself. She smiled, a small blush still gracing her cheeks.

"What if you already had my consent?" she asked innocently. His eyes flashed with something fierce.

"Vixen..." he mumbled. He rolled over and began to kiss her.

*~*End Flashback*~*

She was glad she got over Inuyasha, and that zombie, Kikyo. She deserved better, she knew, and she told herself that everyday.

She smiled, relaxing in the warm water. She now had the best.

****With Sesshoumaru*****

He now knew that the race, or type of creature you were did not stop love from rearing it's head at you. 'She was right when she deduced I simply did not care anymore...' he thought. He had no one to love him since his mother died, hundreds of years ago. Now, the feeling was fresh, and familiar to him. He praised any deity above that granted him with love again. He knew he would not be alive were it not for his little miko. He would still be lying there, on the verge of death, or already dead.

~You think i'd leave your side baby..

You know me better than that...

You think I'd leave you down

When you're down on your knees....

I wouldn't do that..

I'll tell you you're right when you want,

and if only you could see into me

ha ah ah ah ah ah ...~

Yes, he bedded women, but only to get rid of the ache in his teen years. He had been abstinent for nearly a century now, but oh, he was going to change that now.....

He knew, from the time she cried for him, that she cared. He then knew from the time that she gave him his arm back, that she loved him, and that she would not be rid of him ever again. He knew he loved her, because the dormant feeling had suddenly risen up and attacked his senses full force.

He flew through the skies. They had been courting for months now, much to the inu-hanyou's dismay. However, he hoped the half-breed idiot rolled over and died at what he was going to do tonight.

He would ask her if she would be his mate. There was not a doubt in his mind that she would accept. He would visit her almost every night, and she would tell him how much she missed him on the nights he could not arrive to see her.

He sniffed the air, nearly falling off his youki cloud. She was in heat, and in a spring to boot. He flew faster towards his destination.

~Oh, when you're cold,

I'll be there,

to hold you tight to me

Oh, when you're low

I'll be there,

By your side, baby......~

*~*~*Back with Kagome*~*~*

She sensed something, a huge power source. She then recognized the aura. Sesshoumaru! He must've smelt her in the hot spring.....she smiled. Another night of bliss, of comments on how beautiful the night was, and touching. Oh, the touching. But something shone in his eyes when he arrived right in front of her.

He was walking. Towards her, and the spring. The silver moonlight washed over his naked body, making his hair and skin glow with an almost un-natural looking light. His honey colored eyes glinted with lust...but were full of love. She was nearly in tears again at the intensity of his stare. His hands moved his hair over his shoulder, out of his way. He sank in the water, the look intensifying, smouldering, even.

She knew it was going to be more than just touching tonight, if he got his way.

He wrapped his arms around her, pulling her flush to his now wet and naked body.

"My love, I have come to ask you a question...." he purred in that oh so sexy voice. She gulped, and nodded. He tisked.

"Now, now, you need not be afraid of me taking an answer a wrong way, but whether you answer a certain way would make different outcomes." he mused quietly. He looked down at the flushing girl.

"There is no easy way to say this to you, Kagome, but it must be said, lest I go crazy. I would like for you to become my mate. Do you accept?" he asked, with a little hope in his voice.

Her eyes nearly bugged out. The man of her dreams, the beautiful, almost narcissistic TaiYoukai of the West, the extremely powerful and equally handsome male asked her to become his wife/mate! she closed her eyes. He dreaded her answer, because she had not answered right away. She squealed, and knocked him over into the water.

"SESSHOUMARU! WHY DIDN'T YOU ASK ME SOONER!!!???" she all but screamed. His ears rang for a second, and he laughed. Out loud. A jovial sort of laugh. She backed away a bit.

"Sesshoumaru......you...you laughed!" she laughed as well. His laugh was addictive, and made her want to laugh too.

"I take that as a yes, my lady..." he growled. He pulled her to his chest, and kissed her deeply, no gaps between their bodies.

"My lady, it is time to show you how much I love you, in all reality this time..." he kissed her neck, and guided his hands to her breast. She mewled out as his tongue and teeth worried over each mound. She groaned, her hands sifting through his hair.

"Sesshoumaru..." she made her cry after one of his fingers entered her, to get her ready for him. She rocked on his finger, and he added another, stretching her. She moaned, and he added another finger, this being her full capacity. She cried out, his fingers were doing things to her, naughty things that she often chastised herself on think about him in the first weeks of their courting.

He looked at her, asking her silently to trust him. She held on to his shoulders, and nodded, her signal for being ready. She felt him enter her, and closed her eyes. He suddenly hit something. She opened them again, seeing his trustful gaze. She nodded again, and he thrust into her sharply, breaking her hymen. She gasped, and closed her eyes at the pain. He stayed perfectly still, and soothed her with his purring. Her hands grasped his face, and she looked into his eyes.

"I'm ready, my lord." she smiled. He began to rock inside of her, their bodies slick with the spring water. Sesshoumaru felt the same kind of peace he felt when she healed him. The pleasure was unbelievable. Sesshoumaru buried his neck in her shoulder as he came close to climax. He held back until she came, and sank his fangs in her neck, right behind her, releasing his seed inside of her. He winced, forgetting to put up a soundproof barrier. No doubt Inuyasha and the rest of the group heard, and were running. No matter. She was his now, it mattered not to him.

Kagome shivered. In all reality, they were connected naught but seven or eight minutes, but it felt like a lifetime! She groaned as her body protested to movement. Sesshomaru felt her distress, and picked her up and placed her in the hot, healing water of the spring. He was not sure when they got out, but nonetheless......

He sat next to her, and cleaned the recesses of their lovemaking off of her. Inuyasha appeared, scremaing obscenities. Sesshoumaru gave his customary bored glare.

"Insolent whelp. You shall refrain from using such language in front a Lady."

"Her? She ain't no lady....." sneered Inuyasha. Kagome laughed with a crazed expression on her face. "Inuyasha!!!" she cheered. He recognized this tone of voice.

Shit.

"SIT! SITSITSITSITSITSITSITSIT DAMMIT SIIIITTT!" she yelled.

"OWowowowwowowow Fuck! Bitch, what was that for?" Inuyasha couldn't believe Kagome had no humor....

Sesshoumaru was up in a second, gripping Inuyasha's neck and slamming him into a tree, not caring for his nakedness. Inuyasha struggled.

"Worthless half-breed, if you would actually THINK for once and use your nose, you would not be in this predicament." he snarled. Inuyasha took a small sniff. He could smell......sex. Lots of it. He smelled Sesshoumaru, and Kagome''s scent was all over him. Inuyasha was hit with a ton of bricks.

"Kagome......" he said weakly. Sesshoumaru punched him in the stomach.

"You still do not perceive right, hanyou. Use the correct station for her. She is LADY Kagome, of the Western Lands. I have given her my mark, and soon, she shall become the type of demon her soul would adjust best to. She has already conceived, and you will not stress her. She goes with me." he wispered lethally.

"Sesshoumaru! What have you done to her!!" Inuyasha cried angrily. Sesshoumaru suppresed the urge to sigh. He threw Inuyasha several feet in the opposite direction.

"We've been together for several months, but then, you wouldn't know that, you're always with Kikyo. You chose her. I lived with that decision. I found someone infinitely better--someone who knows who I AM, not who I LOOKED like. I'm sorry Inuyasha, I feel nothing anymore for you. I love Sesshoumaru. That will never change. You had your chance, but you did not take it, and to make matters worse, you ignored it. I'm sorry." Kagome looked almost wistful. Her body began to glow.

"Her transformation starts now. She will be going with me now. Leave."murmered Sesshoumaru. Inuyasha got up, turned around. He said nothing, then walked away.

Sesshoumaru went over to kagome. Her body began to float, wierd symbols flashing around her.

"Her miko blood is fusing with her demon blood, how intriguing....." he wispered, fascinated. The orb of her flew over to the dry ground, and landed. The energy around her dissapated with a 'pop!' sound. Sesshoumaru nearly drooled, but he remembered it was not like him to.

She was paler than before, her skin like porcelain. Her lips were a soft pink-red, and two gold stripes on each cheek, her wrists, hips, and ankles. Her hair was like gossamer thread, and a shiny platinum color with black hairs dotting all over so it made her hair look more grayish than anything. Her eyes were the same, with a splash of gold on her lids and lashes. A silver crescent moon was adorned with two six pointed stars on her head, signifying that she was a inu miko. She had three soft and fluffy tails, of which she covered herself with. They were silver, and glowed in the milky moonlight. Her ears were pointed, and were adorned with a pair of crystal moondrop earrings. She looked at herself in the reflection.

"Sesshoumaru, what happened to me?" she asked.

He smiled one of his rare smiles for her.

"This happened because I bit you. You are a beautiful Inu youkai. Come. We must get back to the castle......." he picked up their clothing, and sped off towards his lands.

**********************************

Kagome snapped out of her memories. She realised that Sesshoumaru put a spell on her. He lay next to her in their bed. She blinked at him.

"My love, we have been together for one year now. I know you may have had doubts, but I relayed the past to you to show you how much you mean to me, even if I do not show it all the time. I do love you, my Kagome." Kagome cried in happiness as Sesshoumaru hugged her, his wife, Lady of the Western Lands.

"Happy anniversary, my beloved."

~Oh when you're cold

I'll be there...

To hold you tight, to me..

Oh when you're low

I'll be there

By your side baby.......~

*~*Fin*~*