Beyond Help by Swtxlilazngrl

Memories

*^*^* While running towards me, the little six year old girl fell and I ran towards her. "May-may, you should be more careful. Let's go over there; I have to tell you something." I really didn't want to tell her but I had to. I didn't want to go but mother is leaving and I have to go with her.

"kay, but Fluffy, what is it? You look sad; did someone upset you?" She said when we were sitting on the ground surrounded by flowers. She was my best friend although I was two years older; we had also promised that we would be friends forever but now I'm breaking the promise. She was also the only one to ever know what I'm thinking but now I'll probably never see her again.

I sighed and said. "Kagome," I only called her by her real name when I'm serious about something. "I have to go home. I can't stay because my mothers leaving." I tried to look away but I couldn't and stared at her. Awaiting her reaction.

May-may started to say something but didn't because her beautiful, clear-blue eyes said it all. She was going to start crying; he hated when girls cry especially her. But the silence didn't last long. She said, "Fluffy," using my childhood nickname that only she and my mother uses. "I knew you had to go sometime but I didn't think it would be this soon. I have something to give you so you can remember me." She never ceased to surprise me; I thought I would be the only one giving a present.

She took out a little pouch made of silk and was colored gold. She said. "Fluffy, this pouch contains herbs and such that have a lovely scent. The herbs are dried so the scent should last for a very long time so long as it didn't catch water. The pouch is gold and made of silk to match your eyes and family." She sniffed and continued. "I made this when we first became friends because I knew you would have to go someday. I kept it with me ever since, just in case something like this happens." She continued. "uhm... when will you leave?"

"...tomorrow." I answered receiving an answer that was barely audible to the human ear but he heard it thanks to his youkai hearing. "oh..." which then turned into a sob. I came over and gave her a hug and laid her head on my shoulder and said, "I have something for you too." This caused her to look up startled.

I showed her the necklace that I had in my clenched hand. "This is a necklace that all male youkai have. It is meant to be given to one's mate. Mine was made special because I am the heir. The outside which is made of pure crystal was shaped like a crescent to match the one on my head. It also has a jewel on it which is my birthstone. While in the inside is filled with my blood. It was made the instant I was born. You can't open it and the crystal is unbreakable. I,I wanted to give this to you. As a promise I will be back and I will have you as a mate. Will you accept it?" I said all this will afraid of her reaction. But what she did surprised me yet it didn't. She cried and hugged me tight in which out of instinct, I hugged back. I didn't want to let go but I had to because I sensed that mother was looking for me.

She answered me. "Fluffy, I will accept it and I will promise to wait for you. I'll miss you. Please come back to me." After we each took each others gift, I left while she sat down and started to cry again. I couldn't bare it when she cried; I always tried to make her happy and when someone started to bully her, I would stop them my way. Now, I can't even see her let alone protect her. We had both doubted that we would ever see each other again but I had looked over my shoulders and saw her for the last time. *^*^*

"Aghhhh." He said when waking up. 'why do I still get this dream? Its been ten years and I'm now 18. this dream is coming to often, maybe its because the other Lords have been reminding me that I'm of the age for a mate.' Sesshoumaru had been getting this same dream for years but it came more constantly these last few days. He instinctively grabbed the golden pouch with the scent that was a constant reminder of HER. He had been looking for her for years now. The fact that he cant find her is frightening but what was more frightening was the fact that when he first went looking for her, he found her village gone. As in a fire had spread rite through it. He promised her he'd find her and be her mate. He had fallen for her at such a young age especially when she was his only friend and the only one to ever care for him like his mother did. OR it could the fact that she didn't run when she first met him. Either way, she was the first one he ever cared for and he promised himsel f he will find her even if it's the last thing he did. He missed her a lot ever since he left. Perhaps that is why Rin is with him. She reminds him so much of Kagome, at least personality wise. Her name Kagome always brought back memories. 'Speaking of names; I doubt she even know my name; after all she always called him Fluffy' he sighed, no one called him Fluffy since his mother died. Of course he remembered why she called him Fluffy. She heard his mother called him that and when she asked his name and why he was called fluffy. He told her his name was Sesshoumaru and that his mother called him Fluffy because of his tail. She tried to say 'sesshoumaru' but couldn't so she decided to just called him Fluffy. He then remembered that some demon was causing trouble in the edge of Inuyasha's forests.

"JAKEN" he called reluctantly. And the green toad like creature scurried in and said. "Lord Sesshoumaru?" All of a sudden a little girl with black hair tied to the side came in and jumped on his (I think) Futon and sat there.

"Jaken, are my things ready yet?" Sesshoumaru asked while holding Rin, the little girl he adopted.

"Yes, my Lord. Are we leaving now?" the green servant asked.

"We? I believe I said Me." He said

"Yes, my Lord but you cant possibly leave me here ALONE with that filthy human brat." Jaken replied hoping his master will change his mind.

"Can't I?" He countered.

"Sesshoumaru-sama, please don't leave Rin." The little girl said. "RIN!" Sesshoumaru warned with the look on his face, in which Rin recognized. "Rin means, I mean, I." she said with admiration and hope in her eyes.

"Rin, I have to go..." He started but stopped when he saw her eyes water. "Hai, Rin, You and Jaken may go with me."

Both girl and toad sighed with relief. Neither wanted each other's company. Rin responded by giving Sesshoumaru a hug and climbed off of the futon and said. "Rin will pack up with Jaken and meet Sesshie-sama and breakfast." And with that he was left with temporary peace.

~*~*~*~

"Agh....." the raven black haired Miko said as she woke up. She instinctively grabbed the necklace at her neck to calm herself. She had had the same dream again for days now. The dream of the little boy she used to know named Fluffy or at least called Fluffy. She couldn't remember his real name even if her life depended on it. The dream was always about the same thing; HIS departure. But next to that dream she also had a nightmare.

~Flashback~

"Mother, father, where are you." The little girl yelled wishing for an answer as she ran into the village after going to pick some flowers far away in the same place HE left. She had a bad feeling and ran back only to see death everywhere and fire burning over trees and huts and even people. She looked for her mother only to find sudden movements that caught her eye.

"May-may, leave, leave now." Her mother said weakly, proof that she is injured, when she came running over,. "Kagome, you must leave while you can. Your father is gone and I will be too. You are the last hope. Kagome, LEAVE." and with that her mother coughed blood and died.

"Mother, MOTHER... PLEASE DON'T LEAVE ME!! Please." 9 year old Kagome yelled with her last word a whisper. She held her mother close and cried until she collapsed.

~*~*~*~

After a while later, a miko came into the village. She was too late and she knew that. Now she's just looking for survivors. It had to be demons, and she knew that and hurried as fast as she can. Now, all she is worried about is the survivors and the demon that might still be nearby. She said to herself, "Oh Kami, I am sorry I am late." And she continued her search through the fire and could have sworn she heard a sob. She looked around her and found nothing but fire. Although it was burning, she went closer to what she assumed was the impossible sob. What she found nearly broke her heart. She found a child who was holding what was most likely her mother. The mother was dead but the child was alive but was unconsciously crying.

Midoriko picked up the child and said, "Kami help, please let her live". She ran with the child quickly outside the village to allow the child to breathe clean air. After a few minutes, she sensed a Demon. The demon was most likely a centipede demon. She knew that much thanks to her powers of a miko. After all the guardian of the Shikon no tama (I think that's it), at least after the miko Kikyou died anyways. Midoriko grabbed her bow and arrow and aimed it at the demon. Unfortunately, an exact second before the arrow hit, the demon threw some poison powder at them. She however temporarily forgot the child and out of instinct, placed a shield around herself. The child however, chose that moment to open her eyes and wake up. The child in an instant fell to the ground as the demon died. (Please bare with me, I know it's all too coincidental and fast in this flashback but I had to get it over with and not spend the entire story explaining her past. On with the story)

~*~*~*~

Midoriko grabbed the child and immediately ran to her home which is much larger than the other homes. Her home was in vast land surrounded by forests and more land. It was also at an edge of a forest but surrounded by 5 villages. She didn't belong to a village but serve all five. Visitors come for shelter during travel; villagers came for medical problems; demons came to kill; that was her ordinary day. This village that the girl was from wasn't even one of the five around her home but was one where she followed her senses to.

~END FLASHBACK~

Kagome sat and thought about her past a little before Shippou woke up. That little child was then raised by Midoriko and lived 7 years of her life in this home. As upsetting as it was, Midoriko died 3 years ago leaving Kagome a home with vast land a responsibility of five villages. Unlike the other miko, Kagome's job was to protect five villages that surrounded her home. She was also different from them because she was a healer who helped heal demons as well as humans. She was also different because she adopted a little kitsune whose name was Shippou.

As soon as she ended her train of thoughts, the little kitsune came in and jumped onto her lap. He said. "Kagome, when are we gonna go?"

With that she remembered that she had to travel to Kaede-baba's village to give her some herbs that only grow around here. If she left after the morning meal, she would make it there before sundown. She would then stay the night and travel home in the morning. "Shippou, we'll leave after the morning meal, is that alright."